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BABY , i'm down down down ):

2010-06-04T01:25:00.003+08:00

HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZ ~~~~

Yeah , feel like releasing my stress with a long sigh . Besides that , there's music to make me feel better bt not for long . It seems my blog is dead and supergirl is back to keep it alive aafter a hectic busy life . So much for JUNE holidays , everything is spent on school and maybe work . Yeahh . Next week should be time to rest and off to Malacca . I hope it will be FUN or at least i can rest my head off . I slept at 7 until 12.30 am today . I feel like i can sleep for days . Feel so good . GTG ! :D

Finally sixteen ! :D

2010-05-23T20:31:00.003+08:00

Chingu - s ! :D:D:D:D

OMG ! I'm sixteen . Hahas ! -.-

Anyways , i had a super awesome teriffic birthday yesterday . I was too tired to update so since now i'm quite free ; UPDATES ! Editing pics now will post it on FB soon . After i'm done . Haixx . Escape was the same since the last time i've been , have to say 08 2/1 outing there was SUPER FUN siot just like how i had SUPER tons OF FUN on my bdae . Rode the some rides and puke . Goshhh .. dowan talk about it . Still abit dizzy now . Maybe cos i ate too much . GOOD food and cupcake though . Thanks guys for the small yummy cake . Hahas . Took lots and super lost of photos . Camwhore like theres not tmrrw . CIP was okaayy , but i dowan go recycling centre , boring siot . I wanna do the blocks . But nvm lah , still had FUN but it kept raining and sempat camwhore .HAHAS. But left early then cos scared late go escape . Haix . I can't believe weekends will be over D: NO SCHHOOOL Pleeasse ! ):

BIG THANKS to ;

Nabilah,Ameerah & Kak Ain , had a super fun sweet sixteen :D

THANKS to ;

Whole class 4 bdae song , ppl who wish me on FB and my good & close FRENDS ! Love you guys lots (L)

Still counting .

2010-05-18T17:44:00.002+08:00

4moredays .

KONICHIWA :D

Feel like i haven't update for days . Haiixx . SCHOOL was perfectly fine . Hate studying , hate hmwk . But what to do ? Have to struggle and put up with it . Stupidd watermelon never come . HE was suppose too . Sheesh . Nvm i understand he is sick so have to wait until Thursday . I'm biting my nails till then . SG plan is cancel but going Escape after CIP with Nab , Kak Ain & Ameera :D WEES ! Wish i still had SG ! Haiixx . But what i can't understand is why must you be super extra . Believe what ppl sya without knowing the truth or what actually happen . What happen to you ? What did you become ? Things start to grow apart cos we both change and SO did you , you changed more than I did . Whatever lah . You have ur life , i have mine . But to keep things clear , i never knew you . Why must ppl be super irritating . IS it me or is things are changing in a blink of an eye ?

GOODBYE m . GOODBYE y .

L M A O ! :D

2010-05-10T18:00:00.003+08:00

HEYYS ! What a crazy Monday . Well almost crazy . Hhahas . Changed my blog skin . WOOTS ! Nothing much at school lah . Study , Eat , Breath , Art , Test . Blablabla . Don't mention Focus . Haix .. didn't hear a single word that Swarty said . But Globalisation is a fun topic . Before Focus send Nab home , say she headache . Aww D: But rain on the way home . Walk home with Prassana . Yeahh . But then ah , Maths Test was hard ): Didn't do some questions but glad i remember the Sub method thingy , did last minute revision and was super sure that kind of question to come out ! AND IT DID ! Hope i get it right . Hees . Btw i finish 2 prep board . Whee ! 3 more to go . Aiyahh . Now i think i'll do some Maths practice or revise some other work . I feel like i'm too free . Must find something to do . And yesterday's Mother's Day celebration wasn't any special . Just went nenek's house . Wah , mum not tired ah , Mothers Day also nag . On the way inside car nag .. at home nag . Ishh , kasi break tak nak rest mulut tuh . Haishh wat to do , mothers are always like that . Still love them . Everyday is Mothers Day ! Remember that . So anyways , it is 12 more days ! argghh , i want to eat so bad D: Btw know my grouping for CIP . I'm okay as long as i'm not the only girl . Hate it if i am D: And reccess is getting more fun without Sec3 cos they taking exams . HAHS !

I somehow feel someone is not happy with me but I'm glad there is a few who finally know what is feels like . I just want to .. ARGHH! I can't control my anger .. or whatever i'm feeling right now . I just feel i'm not the emotional crybaby i was last time . Small things don't upset me now . I'm stronger and also less quiter right ? hahas . man , where did that lonely quite girl who ppl call emo go ? ermm . hahas . And ppl tend to pretend so much . Double face , wear mask isit ? What sia ! ? LOL . hehe . Not happy come say . I donno what happen along this road to apartness . Either i donno you or we're total strangers . I want everything back but seing how much things change , i rather push it away . PUSH PUSH . I don't want it , i don't want you .

I don't want to fall , i don't want a fast beating heart , i don't want to love .

Roller Coaster Mood .

2010-05-04T20:34:00.003+08:00

Annyeonghaesayo !

PHEWW ! What a tiringtiring day at school , my legs , hand or lets just say , whole body is aching especially my back . GOSH , i don't mind getting aches other parts that is not my back , cos the back hurts like FCK - ing hell . Okkayy , so just had a nice long soothing bathe . Hahs .. feel so relax right not .. chilling on the comp but not for long gonna eat later . Btw , i think i'm going on a healthy diet ! Weess . My bo bro says i'm FAT , then i ask Mum , she say ' Maner ader lah , kau tuh obsese sangat -.- wth . She says i look perfectly fine . Well , all i know is mothers don't lie right ? Or do they ? Ermm .. wonders . Hahas . But still i'm living a healthy life though i don't exercise that much . Will try to do sit ups (: And btw my omma is going to be my amma soon , she has so many grey hair growing :X Well have to be xtra nice to her since going be my bbae . WOOTS ! So anyways , went home at SIX today just cos i had to stayback for ART . The weird thing is right , Miss Fasha was being nice to me ? Weird much right . She's never nice too me which i totally don't care cos i don't really like that teacher . DUH :P Err .. lets not talk about art or her , gives me the creep . Do enjoy the nice windy creepy weather while cleaning up befor going home . The Art Room has the most awesome view ever , especially the sky . Haix .. so relaxing . And the sky was pretty dark when i went home and windy too . Awesome right ? Like a day is Forks in Twilight always cloudy . Wish everyday could be like that . School was tiring tough but actually i'm enjoying it . What shit i'm talking ? Of cos i like it cos the rest of the not graduating classes having exams . How dumb . But i do wish our upper sec reccess was less crowdier everyday . And i can't believe Mrs Selvan is quiting! YES .. ! I hate doing the work . Eng suxs . Haix . I fail Physics Speed Test by 1/2 mark . ARHH ! Okkay Okkay enoughh of school.

And ouhhh , i hope Durian and Watermelon cheers up okkayy ? Life will be better once they know that there are more meaninfull ppl around you that will treasure you more than anything . SO don't waste ur time , tears . Just do what ur heart is happy with and stay that way :D
And you can never give up on LOVE cos LOVE is the one that gives up on you . So scared of hurting and leaving a deep scar its better to just stay away :D

I hate to fall , once i do i'll fall deeper .

Can i not think ! ?

2010-04-30T18:31:00.003+08:00

Red Oh Red :D

GOSSHHHH ! Its been such ' a so much things in my head week ' ! Really . I keep thinking of things that are so pointless or may have been long gone in memory lane . Haix . Memorry lane .. love to go for trip (: Anyways , today was Malay Focus , man sick of it . Everytime test . Whtever lah . Then library with Nab . Thinking of borrowing a book but haven't pay fine and i don't think i have time for book reading . Went home , miss more than 2 busses cos v.v full and saw Rahayu , she let me taste a sample of a brownie she bought , damn NICE siol . Hahas , was quite hungry lah that time . Hees . Thanks hor Ayu ! And its been Black Magic and BangBang game madness . Played on Thursday i think and everyone was like dying to know . LOL so funny lah :X Now i think most ppl know . Ermm , so much to say but forget already . Haiyyah . Oh yahh , wanted to watch movie yesterday but no Toy Story 3D . Shit lahh . Been dying to watch 3D . Haixhaix . Nvm , next time perhaps . Long weekend , so gonna do Maths and Art babyy ! Yeah .

Whoa , seems like time flys so FAST ! May ? Aiyooo . Dowann ! Eventhough my birthday . Whees . I'm scared i'll have the worst SWEET SIXTEEN ! Isshh , no negative thinking . Hahas . So hows life ? ermm , great but let it be better . I want to rewind but dowan to go back . Everyone seems happy , and i am too ! :D Will i ever find or even know what it really feels like ? Well , someday huhs . Love is accidental . I made lots of mistakes , may be forgiven or not , it will still not erased whats done and whats gone . The only mistake i can prevent form making is LOVE , it can' happen if i donno the true meaning of it :P For now , i dowan to think about anything , i'll just look forward and hope that things will be better and happiness will shine through me . Ehh , sound emo sia . Well , i'm not ah . So F OUT !

Love is a result of a happy accident :P

Wonders ? Ermm .

2010-04-26T21:32:00.003+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY NABILAH !

ME and BIRTHDAY GIRL !

Haixx . Long time since i update . Hehes . Or was it just a few days ago ? Ermm nvm . Wanted to update straight after the Saturday BBQ party but was damn tired but had super lotsa fun . Birthday girl was HOT ! Hahas . Cheychey .. confirm banyak pressents . Hope you like MINE,FARIS AND DYLAN present . Talking about birthday girl , she never come today . Haiyoo , say SICK ! Kesian lahh . Get well ! :D Skipp the school part . Haissh . ART is getting tougher ! damn it . I'm sorry if i have not been putting my best in my studies . But so much going through my mind . Nvm , don't feel like talking about it . Anyways , watching a new K - Drama . HEES ! Birth of The Rich ! Ever since i got the KBS channel , i've been hooked to that drama . Ishish , stop talking about TV ! Hahass . Well , i hope weekends come so i'll do my K-Movie marathon ! So FUN ! But firstly , get through boring skool life for this week .

I'm not easy to love , not easy to admit that i'm in love , not easy to say that i have fallen in love .

Fishy Day ; Hatred .

2010-04-22T17:35:00.002+08:00

Goshhh , its raining cats and dogs with loud thunderstorms that gives me the fright but lucky not at home alone . Mum leaving for work later so only left me and bo bro at home . Eh , haven't seen ba bro for few days already . Who cares , its more peacefull now at home . Haix . But i think he will be back on weekends or maybe tmrrw . NO !! But will be out on weekends . Sat is Nab bbq . Wheeheee . Anyways , today was supper hot but then it rain but was quite warm until i got caught in the rain then i was freaking cold . Hahas . But it was fun . Super love the rain . School was short . Focus ended at 4.15 ! Love thursdays (L)

Where is everyone when i need them the most ? Anyone care to be by side ? I'm carrying this heavy burden all by myself . This is why i rather keep problems to myself cos no one will care to understand . Hatred is controlling my heart . Anger is in my head . Someone help . I keep saying i'll go crazy one day but i know its not a wish and i don't hope so . But what if i am ? I need someone . Haix . I donno but it keeps growing . I can't tolerate it anymore . PPL say just forget and forgive but i can't . You made my life a disaster since i came to RSS . You cause me to lose the ppl i care for. Now i'm taking back what you took from me long time ago , my happiness . I don't need pretenders like you . How can you say that about me when your the one doing it all this while ? I tried but i'm sick of your faace . You cause me too much pain that i can't just sit down there and let you ruin my life any further . I know ppl like you who will go to any extent to hurt the ppl you so called care for just to gain what you want . Then you lied . You never cared for them just making use of them . Somehow , ur pathetic . I don't care about the good times cos its long gone . I keep forgiving you but you end up being the same person . I just wanna spit out everything about you . And somehow , I wish i don't even know you or existed in my life .
널 미워해

My service charged eh Watermelon has increased! Muahahas !

Retarded .

2010-04-20T17:59:00.003+08:00

Its a sunset from far cos the greatest things can only be admired from far (:

PHEW ! What a day huh ? And its only Tuesday still left 3 more days plus got Speech Day . Alahhhh .. but its okay finish at 1 ! WHEEHEE ! SO , school was soso . Never eat tat much . Now , hungry but must resist those good food . This way i won't grow fatter or waste my freaking money :D Mdm Liz wasn't in school for FOCUS ART which means that cikgu sial was looking after our class . SHE can go (you know the rest) Seriously sia , got problem with me ah . WTF ah , i do wat i want ah sia no need tell me what to do besides Mdm Liz is in charge now . FO ah ! I'm so glad i'm not the only person who hates her . Hehes . PHEW ! I have backup if she go nasty . Okay moving on , English Mrs Selvan didn't come so I wanted to escape but end up dowan to . Down for BOOK CHECK . walao -.- Enough ah , school talk is just making me stress .

Anways , still deciding . Man , i need lotsa cash . Will save ! :P And i donno why i get piss so easily at those who wanna find problem . I know they joking ah , but please ah , i know you got no life thats why like to piss ppl off for fun ! (Fk) I hate being in an angry mood . Haix . And i have a feeling ppl like you don't move on from what u keep deep down . I know you too well , so yeah , don't pretend lah . You can also go ....... But who cares , as if i like you -.- Sudah lah , malas nk blog already .

Can't wait for Sat :D

FO ; Gaining .

2010-04-19T21:32:00.002+08:00

YES ! Freaks Outs . I think i'm gaining weight . This is all thanks to Ma , who made me so health conscious all over again ! She says if i keep eating at night , I'll grow fight ! What a meanie ): Made me sad ya know . But nvm . Will try my best to run for tmrw's PE ! WEE ! 45kg here i come . Is losing 2kg that hard ? Sheesh . Okay enough of the weight stuff . Need to talk about something else to keep my mind of this kind of things . So school was whatever lah . Mdm Liz didn't come . SUPERYEHH ! But Miss Fasha .. urghhs ... i still don't like her . geez . What a ++++ ! Okay nvm . So after school went CP with Nabilah , Hui Shan and Si Yan , look for Nab's clothes . GAHH , i have shopping needs . Nvmnvm , must control ah Shikin . *SLAPS ! Gtg ah , so bored now . Better watch TV . Sayonara .

I'm not a TOY !

2010-04-16T20:37:00.006+08:00

Konichiwa !

Yesterday didn't update cos was tired and obviously lazy . So no HL today . YES ! But was late as usual but i wasn't late you know yesterday ! Made an effort to wake up early just to be early . So had a little suprise for our chairperson in class today and so for reccess . She looked so shocked or maybe more of a touched feeling ? Hahas . Hope she likes the Winnie The Pooh present :D So after school then went home , then CW with Nab . FOCUS ! Urgghh .. Malay Focus is freaking boring and QUITE ! Its like quiter than the library . So freakkyy . YES ! Ate KFC . YUM ! Anyways , i feeel like i can get addicted to something to easily . But i can control my addiction . No worries . And i'm so tried of putting up with sensitive ppl . Why take things to seriously ? Sheesh . I feel like i gave in too much . All i know that , small things will not bring me down anymore . I can't cry cos i feel as if my tears have been dried up . Cried too much for the past 3 years in RSS . Still promising to myself that I will be happy :D Yet , i wish i never knew you . I'm a toy , put away when lose interest , take it back when they want to play it . Haiz .. no mood to blog already lah . Bye ! Btw , Happy Advance Hui Shan (:

J or K ?

I miss my daily addiction .

2010-04-14T17:49:00.002+08:00

PEACE is all I NEED !

YES ! WHY ? Cos ... my two babo brothers are not at home ! Muahahaha . Feels like I'm the only child but for today only . My bo brother is coming back home tmrrw . But glad lah , should be happy what or else i suffer . Can't stand the house being to quiet . If have him at least can bully . LOLS ! I'm evil . Muahahaha (again) . My other ba brother donno when come back . He think what this house hotel ah . Go (you know the rest) . HAHAHS ! But whatever , we adek beradek all the type to MYOB one . Don't like to KPKP :P So abit late for school . haix . When will i ever learn ? :( Saw Nab only for photo taking :( :( She went home after that , hope she feels better :D And i'll bet the photo will turn out urghh . Ouhhyahh , wanna thank mummy(: for treating me for reccess today cos I didn't bring my money since was in a rush for skool . DAMN ! Must wake up extra early tmrrw . Ermm . Btw , been concentrating alot on my studies . Just need to recap once I get home , so i don't forget . Hees ^-^ And i just notice when Taufiq read comments about me in the my Report Book , most teachers say i'm quite . Wth ? I know i am SOMETIMES . But whats wrong with that ? Later noise complain . Haiyyoo . But at least I know when its the right to shut up ._____. Alahhh .. nvm .. so pointless telling all this .. no one will get it anyways . Moving on to my progress for ART , Mdm Liz says my shading is IMPROVING ! Wheehee ! But i still think i sux . (Taufiq would have gave me a tight slap if i said that) But i don't care , i didn't say it .. i type it ! :X He say will call me but is he crazy ? 4 am call ? But nvm lah , my phone not in silent mode when I sleep :P And i am not sure if i can sleep tonight . The house is toooo quite .. freaks me out . Lucky , mama is back from WORK ! Well , i think i better chow . Take a nice long bathe then HOMEWORK on a piece of A4 paper ! Haahs . Funny right OMG ! OKIE BYE !

Sweet talkers , Heart breakers ... whats next ?

Never On Time .

2010-04-13T18:52:00.002+08:00

Was late for skool but luckily was not late late :O Stupid alarm ! It stop snoozing after i set it up for 4.30 am . Yes very early i know , just incase if i am late (: But wats the point , i can never be on time this days . Was late for Art Focus . Lucky Mdm Liz wasn't there that time . And was also lucky Mdm Liz didn't ask me why never come stayback yesterday . PHEW . That stupidass still has issues with me . WAHH ! I bet she will be freaking HAPPY ah , i drop Art (which i'm not). GO and .. you know the rest ! Haahahas . Nab didn't come today D: PE was just super tiring . I hate running , IN HOT SUN ! Haix . I feel i totally lost interest for Combined Humans ! I think that's the subject where most ppl fail . Concentrating a whole lot more in Physics ! Yehh .. hope I improve Sciences ! Well , the whole 'hot news' was a rumor .. just heard . The whole commotion was tak perlu . Really . MYOBP ! No life btol lahhh . OH yahh , Nab's bbq birthday is confirmed . Hees . Still thinking of what to buy for her . Saving money now . So will do some shopping when i am free . Btw , i learn something today , LATE = NO MILK COFFEE ! Gahh .. its a must cos its an addiction . Haixx. Hope Nab comes for Photo Taking tmrrw (: Okayy , gonna go bathe now .. then do homework .. then .. watch DRAMA ! Whee ~~~~

My eyebags are getting deeper . ZZzz .

Rainy days are just SUPER awesome .

2010-04-12T18:44:00.004+08:00

Don't you all just love rainy days ? GOSH , i love it so much . Why can't it just snow . *slaps , can never happen . DUH -.- But i still wish it would . I donno why i'm loving the cold so much . Heat just makes me .. urgghh . How was school ? It was well whatever . School feels like the most talk about subject but least to not talk about . WHY ? Cos its just like any other days . Wake up , assembly , lessons .. RECCESS .. lessons .. BREAK .. focus .. END ! Boring right ? YAWNS ! Feels like i am an automated robot to do this every freaking day but i had FUN , LAUGHED ! Sometimes thats what it is all about . Not only studies . Hahas . Okok you get my point . So , my dearest mum met up with Mdm Zu for the parents meeting session . Got my report book D: Dissapointing cos i failed SCIENCES ! Gahhh ! Don't freeakking care about Combines Humans . GO DIE ! Will improve on my Physics . Hees ^-^ Mdm Zu said that i have to buck up on my studies and also no more colour contacts . But who cares , i don't wear them daily anymore . Changed back to normal lenses (: After Focus thought of going Causeway but Nab wasn't feeling well . Take care hor :D So , walk her home . Talked , along the way . Haiz .. feels like old times . Akward though since its been a long time . Now , thinking of eating then do my Maths ! Waiting for Watermelon's msg . Dumbass :

GET LOST PPL ! LOL . Jkjk . ByeBye .

HONEY !

2010-04-11T18:56:00.003+08:00

Gahhh ! XD

Hello humans ! I can't believe weekends are coming to an end . It seems to fast . I feel like i did nothing yesterday . Yeah , cos my neck was aching so bad ! Today , was abit sick . Headache then vomitted . Haix . Mum gave me panadol . Feeling a bit better . Did abit of Maths .. SO HARD ! I can't give up ! Must peserve to succeed . LOL :X ! Okkkayy .. nvm . Took photos of my room but the camera died half way . Gosh .. have to find a reason to tell Mdm Liz . Parents Teacher meeting was .. well nothing . Mum didn't come but she said she's meeting Mdm Zu tmrrw . YES ah , report book . If i did well , i'm gonna ask her for something . Ermm , what should it be ? hahas . I have needs okay :P Thinking of trying the Milk Green Tea . But Taufiq says it sounds grows . OH well , should just stick to my two (F) MILK COFFEE & TEA . I wish April wouldn't end too soon . I dowan it to be May eventhough its my Birthday ! D: For now , i think i should stick to studies and not think of stupid things . But to be clear , everything is okay now .. settle it all already but have to say that it will take time for things to be like the old times . Miss it soo much . Haix .. Okkayy .. back to surfing net . BYE :O

My stupid baby . My sweet baby .

2010-04-10T18:01:00.009+08:00

I need new shoes ! :P

Such a boring weekend . Raining . So dark . My neck is like aching so bad! I think i slept in a wrong position or something . OUCH ! D: Anways , didn't update yesterday cos was TIRED . Now having slight headache . Feeling abit realived for as what is done is done . Btw , my old frend added me on FB ! OFG ! I miss her , so much , i thought she changed alot . More prettier . But who cares ppl change . Fo someone who stays the same is either scared , or just .. i donno . For those who gave me words of courage . Thanks so much , for making things better for me to move on . I'm strong now so things like these won't make me cry . My tear can never be abt something useless . Hahas . Chatting now . Taufiq hope you get better . Faris , its been a long time since we had a nice long chat :X Seems its getting better but all i want is ppl to help me get thru this . Appreaciate it if you do ! :P

I think most ppl would have know about what happen yesterday or what happen lately . I wish to not talk about it . But like 'someone' said , don't bottle up your feelings . Yeah , i learn alot . Hahas . The whole thing i've been thru is just ugly . I asked for it , you gave it and to think of it , you hit like a fcuking bitch you are . Really , compare to the scratches , the anger is much more painfully . And whatever to youu . I don't feel like entertaining ppl like you . You never knew who i am , its just that you think what i am . Shy , quite , innocent . I am really like that ? To you maybe , but its fair enough i have my say about how i tolerated you for the past 3 years of my life . Forgiving u was just the biggest mistake . But like i said , i don't regret what i do . No point at all . You have the face to say i'm backstabber , how bout it ? Has if you nvr done that . Don't pretend , don't lie , don't deny cos its gonna come out clear in the end . I known u too long .. u have ur ways .. don't show ur pity face .. here okay . Crying for attention is just stupid . If u can't change then at least shut up . Is shutting up for one min that hard . Sheesh . i don't care anymore , i say what i say cos u ask me to just say to ur face . SO here take all this , u KNC ! i know i can be mean somethings but u have done meaner things that i kept quite about , its just fair . U make everything seem apart . Now its just hard to take it all back ! ): So my last word is , either you go and DIE or realise you are just a KNC ! Thats it .

Toleration is only to a certain extent . Being too nice makes ppl have advantage on you and think your weak .

KNC !

2010-04-08T21:56:00.003+08:00

YAWNS !

So tired right now but force myself to post before goin' to sleep . Such a kcoh day . Reallyy . Hahas . Don't feel like talking about what happen today during Physics cos I talked out everything for the last few hours just now . Gosh , i'm so tired of all this crap and bullshit . Glad that there are ppl , who understand me . Haix . Thanks alott to those who were there to help solve the problem :D But anyways after that slack with Hui Shan all after Focus . Super fun sia .. TALK , LAUGH LIKE CRAZY ! Wish it could be like that everyday . Hahas . I love a good laugh , helps me forget every single problem in my mind .. well just for a while ah .. not completely .. forgetting something is still not so easy for me .. neither is moving on . So hard to go through everything right now . But no need to worry , I have ppl who care for me . SUPER LOVED ! Hahas . Hope it gets better everyday . NIGHT !

Wish i never know you .

Give me a break ! Seriously :P

2010-04-06T18:58:00.003+08:00

We have to know the right road to our destination cos the signs are just guides .

Heyyooo !

Finally found time to update since i was super busy yesterday . HAIZ . That is all thanks to ART and NAPHA test . Damn it lah . Then at night still got ngaji . Only eat sandwich and drank MILK COFFEE(SL) only you know :P Then slept at 2 on Sunday or wassit yesterday .. can't remember ... having insomia these days . Gosh , whats wrong with me ! Gahh ! So stress . Need a chill pill . Btw , i think my stamina drop . Like so bad cos i didn't do well for NAPHA or my running . Wanna go jog and gym with Nabilah if we are free lah .. cos I understand , we Sec 4 are just damn busy . No time for this and that . Everyday Focus Study . Haiyoo . Emel maybe right , i think school just made us anti-social ppl . OUH sorry can't go out , BUSY ! WTF __ Okay nvm . So today stayback until 6.15 sia do finish our 1st prep board and IT SUCKS ! But its okay (: Anyways , Parents Teacher Meeting coming and i don't think my mum is coming . Oh well , we still have to go for briefing -___- At night sommore . Why dowan to do in the morning so no school . Muaahahaa . But like i said , i prefer school then to be bored to death at home . Yah , i complain but so what .. i'm loving it ! At least get to see my friends :D The teachers .. ermm .. i'm not so enthu to see them . But what to do ? Life is unfair . Hahas :X Watermelon didn't come Focus English today . So bored lah . But during English is FUN ! Of cos mah , WATERMELON is a freak .. thats why . Hahas . KIDDING ! I ate already .. just NOW . YUM . SO now .. ermm .. slack for awhile ONLY .. cos later back to being BUSY ! No choice have to put up with it :D

I promise I won't let anyone ruin my happiness .

PINK PINK PINK :D

2010-04-04T19:31:00.002+08:00

너와 갔던 곳 나의 merry go round 기억 그대로 반짝이고 있어 이 모습처럼 언제나 나의 곁에 He's like merry go round
SNSD - Merry Go Round .

Nothing-do-weekend . SNORES ! ZZZzz . Cant wait to go back to school ! See my peeps :P Study . Laugh my ass out ! ( LOVE) Hahas . Studyy .. again : Was suppose to go out jogging and movie on Friday but both cancel D: Nabilah was sick and tickets were sold out . Then Saturday went out with family didn't go out for movie cos it was damn late then dowan to go . Today .. ermm , otw to library saw someone then ask me to slack along .. then okay hor .. go slack at cwp then library , walk around cwp then HOME ! Boring much . Have to clean my pink pink pink nails ! AWW ! Such a waste , my nails .. Gosh nvm . Then have a HUGE P on my face . I think bad luck is hitting me slowly .. donno whats next ! Feel damn guilty for breaking 2 mirrors inside the house . MumDad nagging .. (IGNORED) Hahas . Now , donno if should eat or not ? Ermm . Anyways , why guys eat so much and never grow fat . DAMNDAMN jealous arh . Have to lose alot&alot of weight . Health concious girl ! YeapYeap . To think of it , ermm i think i'm concious of most things . Hahas . Like eye contact , lahhh .. hate it makes me feel uncomfortable expecially with certain kind of ppl . Hahas . Okay NVM !

Anyways , i finally realise , i'm angry with you , i don't like you , i'm annoyed with you .. blablabla .. but i'm not sad when with you . I met alot of pple who just hurt me , dissapointment . I'm tired of it . I'm sick of thinking about how the past has hurt me so much but at the same time I'm missing it more than anything . You make me laugh eventhough u donno how to shut up ! I've found a friend but haven't found a lover . That i know can never happen . Hahas . Seing you two makes me sad , envy on how ppl can be close eventhough they are not from the same class anymore .

I told myself the truth but why isit still hurting me ?

Friendship is not about how long you know the person but its about who came and never left .

2010-04-03T17:18:00.009+08:00

HELLO !

Doing Art now which is KILLING me ! Arghh . Help me ! Anyways , found this cool pic on Flickr . Hahas . Rahayu ask me to post pics in my post . So why not ? Can relate it to something . Hehes . Was super bored yesterday , so painted my nails . Pink baby ! Whee . I finally realise i'm getting FATTER ! Gahh , need to lose weight lah .. SADD ! Not eating dinner tonight i guess . Nothing much lahh to blog .. Schhool come faster , home is not so sweet anymore . I miss my besties (L)

Btw , i feel like a totally fool right now . Why isit so hard to move on ? I keep digging the past . I told myself that i forgot the past but the painfull truth is that my heart is just bleeding . Your right , i keep bottling up my feelings . I did that cos i know not a person in this world can understand me , can stop my tears , can put i big plaster on my heart . Everything i do is pointless . Why must i meet ppl that i care for but will just end up hurting me ? I'm lieing to myself too much cos i'm just a stupid coward that can never accept the truth . But i can't stop myself . I tired of putting a happy mask when underneath it all , i'm just not the happy girl i look like . So helpless right now . I miss everything !

Take me to a fairytale where happy endings and true love exist .

Ladies First ?

2010-03-31T22:05:00.003+08:00

HeyHeyHey !

Mood : Tired & Sleeppyy !

Now : Blogging , Listening to music , Watching Tvee !

Recently : Just got back home from Malay Competition at around 7+

Result : LOST ! Sharks man ! Just by a few seconds .

Feeling : Not happy but its Okay . Had lotsa FUN !

School : Okay , so normal . FF DAY ! Good food i had . YUM :P

Lessons : Missed Focus ! Damn .

Journey : Went back by somewhat a car , stop at school bus stop then home with Aliah .

Home : Went shopp buy bubbletea . Hehes .

Later : Wash hair and get ready for sleep .

Hopes : Bad weather ! Rain Rain Rain . Muahahaha .

Wonders : If it rains , no Mass Run means Focus Study ? If it doesn't rain , mass run no Focus Study ?

Tomorrow : Plans will go on .

Wants : MY MILK COFFFEEE !! :D

Thinking : Homework how ?

Waiting : 4 tmrrw , 4 you and 4 the secret !

Ladies first ? Yeah right .

Sugar Rush Rush .

2010-03-29T19:02:00.003+08:00

UPDATES ! Gosh , such a rushing monday today . Was late for school , so Nab & Aliah went school w/o me yet i have time to buy MilkCoffee (Fv) ! Getting addicted to coffee . Feel like buying it again tmrrw . That drank gave me Sugarrush the whole day . Felt so hyper . Hahas . But its okie i can handle this can of rushing day .. SO...

Normal lessons . English was like usual , talk like nobody's business with Watermelon of cos . M.T got back test paper , i drop so bad in Malay D: Will try harder . Art , Mdm Liz was scolding our class of 4 , like she always do . Don't care any lesser but i have limits . When its time to do , i'll do . After that , ate . Focus Study SS . The sharwty is back this time with a ridiculous haircut . Hahas ! I think i'm starting to like FS cos it gives me a chance to catch up with studies . Serious :
So it rained during SS . Haiz . Theres where , i got lazy and sleepy . Rainy days are just so slacking .. So after that went to meet Mdm Liz for awhile to finish up Art . Then force to take bus cos it rained so heavily . WTF ? My house only 1 stop take bus. Waste my time only -__-

Btw , i think i'm getting a blue form . Mdm Zu said so cos of my CCA . Fcuk lah later my conduct poor how ? I can't bear too cos this year is N-Levels and I'm trying my best . But some ppl think BEST is NOT GOOD ENUF . Whatever lah . Cikgu sial tuh has issues with me , for all my life in Sec 3 i don't attend CCA a whole lot more than just a few weeks , got get blue form ? No rite . I never come 3 or 4 weeks also wanna complain . Cannot wait ah , my father haven't right letter lah BODOH ! Eh , Art isn't the only thing that is important , i got other subject lah wei .. u want me FAIL isit ? Go die lah __ So angry . ARGHH ! I need a chill pill .

Anyways , have slight flu now , doing hmwk later . HAIZ . Thursday's plan is cancel cos of MASS RUN ): Hope it rains . YIPEE ! Will postponed next week , i hope : P
Think going go MAKAN first . BYEBYE !

Somehow , i think i rather not do anything pointless cos if i do then what do i get ?

Messed up Malay Oral D:

2010-03-25T19:17:00.004+08:00

HelloHello :D

Yes , malay oral today and I think i totally messed it . AGHH! I suck . Never thought it was going to be that hard . Forget it , its all over now . And then went for Chemistry class after that but for a short while ): Bathing later then eat , then do my hmwk and stuff . I just don't like how my life is just damn busy now . Never said i hate it . Still don't feel like talking these few days but then again I realise I'm just like that sometimes or was it just with someone like you . But thanks for those who are there for me . Really appreciate it that you understand that I'm just not myself . I get pissed so easily and i never knew why . Enough of me . School was normal , love english especially . Hahas . Not the lesson . Me and stupid Watermelon keep talking . Damn funny lah , laugh so hard . Thanks for that , never had a good laugh for a long time already . One more thing i'm thankful for is that you can understand how i'm so irritated ... ! Btw , ppl around me keep giving me weird feelings , can they just back away . Sheesh . Going go bath now . Tata ! :P

One question stucked in my head now , if girls are victims of love does that mean guys are just meant to be heartbreakers ?

Slack , Study , Sleep :P

2010-03-24T17:47:00.005+08:00

Its just one of those days that i feel DOWN ):

NOTE : Might be the longest post ever posted . Not interested , GET LOST !

:D

Currently slacking on comp . I only updating now since i'm left with a few minutes of slacking time . . So just ate my instant maggi already since Mum haven't cook . Later gonna go study or do homework . Then SLEEP :O My now-everyday-stressing-boring-to-die-life has started since I have FOCUS STUDY like everydday ): Have to get used to it lah . Today Dragon Fruit not here ): So sad i got stuck with the Apple and a new fruit Bannana . LOL :X Okay nvm , most ppl don't get it :D One of the Art teachers called my parents 2 BLOODY times because of my progress in doing my N-Level Art n also CCA . Haven't go for 3 weeks which doesn't include today . Two more letters to give . Later ask mum to write . And fuck sia that Miss Fasha have problem with me say lah __ CB ! Grr , so angry . And i thought CCA step down already since i already started my FS . Today was Maths & Physics ^_^ Changed to Mrs Lee's class cos Mr See just SUCKS , seriously . I'm doing okay for Chemistry just that i want to also pass my Physics . I rather pass Sciences than Humans(F hate this subject) : Yesterday went library alone to do Maths and relieve my stress . Yes .. sometimes doing hmwk relieves my stress . Btw , my legs are aching so bad because of yesterday's PE lesson . OUCH D: Not going to see Miss Sharwty Pants for a week . Then having Blood Drive on Sunday part of CIP ! Must earn more points . hehe . Btw , Malay Oral tmrrw damn nervous man : I think i'm going to be okay just that i'm not used to talking dalam Bahasa Baku . You know , perfect Malay xP hehehes . So much studying to catch up . Don't feel like i hate Maths anymore cos i used to hate it but if i don't give up on it , i'll keep trying and it isn't so hard? Nah, who am i kidding , still hard . Hahas . English , whatever . Hahs . Ermm well thats it i guess to cover up on my Studies update ?
♥
Anyways, felt like yesterday was such a mess ! I donno whats wrong with me . I am truly sorry . No mood for anything cos went home straight after Focus when some stupid asshole shouted at my ear . I went death for one day . These days also don't feel like talking so much . I talk when I feel like it , shut when i feel like doing so . I can't stand noises that much , pisses me of easily . Just need some time to distress and think straight . To watermelon , I am 1000 times SORRY . I didn't know you would feel that way but please understand what i am going through yesterday , I totally deserve it and that u scared me to death . I was in no mood lah don't have to be so angry ): I promise to eat my medicine if u eat urs (: Hehe . I miss the old times . All the people i got closed to was by accident . It just meant to be that we're frends . Cos the people i was with last time thought i was shy and quite but once they know me , i'm not like that . It takes time to please me know me understand me cos i'm not easygoing . Where were all the people that i have been wif ? Why they change ? I miss them .
♥
Ermm i know things can never be the same but the fact is that u can hate me , u can be angry with me but i can nver do back the same too you cos I still care for you (: Your still inside my distant past that i long wanted to come back but can never will . Your inside my head , my heart . If u thought I changed , then how about you ? I know i did changed , doesn't matter in behaviour or appearance but i'm still the same old girl you chose to befriend . I never regreted , i'm just glad that my past happiness was with you that you make me stronger and that you make me realise i am better than weak . I know that your lacking in showing care love and support but deep inside i know you really do , ur anger , dissapointment can show me enough that you wanted a better life and path for me but where was the happy girl who made me laugh and smile , where is she ? My heart hurts when i'm with you but still i lie to myself kept it deep inside . The only way was to stop and find myself a new happiness that i have now. I wish I was part of life now but no matter what you will always be ..
♥
Good thing i didn't cry , cos at times like these,i don't need to cos i have already been through alot and feel that my heart is stronger . I can endure physical pain but emotional pain is just too hard to handle for me . I feel like there's rocks in my head and needles on my heart . Hurts so much but words can never describe it . I'm not a crybaby or emo or whatever shit . I'm just a girl who ppl can never understand . To tell you how i feel is not the same as what the actual feeling is . I'm the type who tends to know where to stop unless something is stopping me and that i need someone to led me the way . Cos when i turn behind and realize i'm the only person left running , i can never ever look back again but instead to just look forward and run to the end , when the race gets tougher and i get stuck in the middle , i would just hope that someone would take my hand and together we will run not stopping cos we know when we finish the race together and we will wake up to find that we would still be holding each others hand no matter what (:
♥
Love never fails ? But i think pple are the one who fails to understand love . Love is like a mirror that can give you a clear or blur reflection of the faces you make either happy , sad or angry , the reflection won't be stuck there but onces it shatters you can nver determined the faces of what is reflected . All you will get is glass piercing through your every skin making it bleed but the heart that is bleeding more inside nobody can know . I feel girls are just victims of love . The poor prey that is always hunted by predators . Cos there's no point if ppl keep saying things that they don't mean cos if they mean it , it will be right straight from their sincere heart .
♥
So i donno whats tmrrw gonna be like but i hope i
get better and happy everyday :D I just need someone , someone who gets a girl like me . Hope that Thursday's plan will be ON ! Yipee . So excited . And i thought about it , did you ever treat me ? -___- Never ! LOL ! Btw , longest post ever huh ? Don't believe check my archives (; Okay byebye .

To stop hurting yourself doesn't mean to stop caring for the people you love .

Sleep is all i need right now .

2010-03-20T22:08:00.003+08:00

Snapshot !

:O TIRED n SLEEPY .

I feel like i can sleep all day . Flag day today was like so sial . Yes very . Did it at CCK : Worst luck , the tin wasn' t has full as the last time i did at Jurong and Sembawang . But whatever . After school , accompany Nabilah home then walk all by myself in the rain D: But its okay , i haven't played in the rain for awhile , now i think i'm going to be sick . Can't bear to cos Focus Study is starting :P Life is getting stressser . I need happy times . Can it ever come back ?

I realise i've been lieing to myself too much thats why it hurt . What you thought was always yours meant alot more to me . The past that has change what it is now and the present that will change the future . Being with the people i love throughout everything made me stronger . And starting to miss their presence . I thought i always be ur frend but now i'm just the past to everyone . Where were the times where all the ppl i care made my life the best . Now it doesn't matter cos nothing will be the same . I'm just stuck with unsurities . Can i ever be sure ?

You can believe a lie but can never deny the truth .

March Holidays D:

2010-03-16T22:49:00.002+08:00

Random pic ! PURPLE (L)

BORE ! Yes March Holidays is just plain boring . Haix . School for 3 days . Rest for two days which means doing Art ): Still having school tmrrw . Double): but its okay , i rather not stay at home . School today morning , Physics yawed :O English was like what the hell ah , have to stackback until 2.00 for stupid filecheck . Whats install for me tmrrw ? Don't even wanna know . Just now went outt then went back , eat then comp laterr sleeping .

Everything is just fine now . I am in no mood to be angry , sad or whatever . I just want to be SmileyShikin(: Happy always but i donno i always feel scared of losing away all that i ever felt happy with . I'm sick of not getting my happiness . If today was a fairytale , would i have my happy ending and find my prince ? Hahas , bullshit . No such thing anymore :P Have to cheer up no matter what ! Make me laugh cos i dowan to cry .

It takes time for me to get close to someone .

SC PICS (;

2010-03-15T15:48:00.006+08:00

SPORTS CARNIVAL :

I think thats all i have .. some may be in Dayah's phone . Oh well , we'll find time to upload the rest if i there's any .Black and White cos i hope it will be a memory to be remembered .Btw , its officially March Holidays but whats the used , got school tmrw . Haix . But nvm lah at least got 2 days free . Can finish up my Art (: Saturday flag day . Heard it was at CCK . Goinngg outt later :X So for now , i think i'm going go get smtg to eat . Gosh , if i gain 3kg more , i rather just kill myself XP

If someone says they will catch you , will you jump on the lower level of a building so they would catch you faster or would you jump on the higher level because you're not sure that they will catch you ?

Its not easy for me to say that i have fallen in love .

Yesterday Today Tomorrow .

2010-03-13T17:52:00.005+08:00

YESTERDAY (Sports Carnival) :

SC yesterday was okkayy lah .. not as fun as i wanted it to be cos it rained. Being upper sec SUCKS ! Haix .. Played only one game but tired .. donno why suddenly no mood . Some stupid bitch spoil it . Don't feel like talking about it . Our team lost for the Handball but won the Frislah eventhough i didn't play . Won a medal but threw it away ): Don't feel i deserve it , i didn't play .. I wanted to earn my first medal that i actually played . Yah , never won a medal ): Hahas . Miss those days in SEC 1 & 2 . It was the best days :D Feel like crying . GOSH ! no cannot cry . Hahas . Will post pics next time , nab haven't send me some .

TODAY (Went Out) :

Out to IKEA wif Mum to get the stupid comferter that the BLOODY fcuking asshole ask me to get . Don't like her sey but i hate it more that Mdm Liz is back . Confirm we all DIE ! Argghh :X
Later at night still need to go my grandmother's house . Tired lah today .. lack of sleep eventought slept like quite early .

TOMORROW (Going outt again) :

Yeap going out again for a bdae party with family . Very busy weekend and holidays . Then Sat still have Flag Day . I only got 2 free day ): Ermm but nvm lah , busy is better than bored? I donno lah .. Gtg .. very hungry :X

You dig a hole hoping to find treasure , treasure full of gold but i dig the hole cos i want to take back all the treasure i kept down there , the treasure of my life , full of memories , love , friendship and the past that could mean nothing to youu but alott to me . Don't hope you'll get the treasure of gold cos all you can get is dirt . Get it bitch ?

I'm tired of your fcuking behaviour for 3 years .

I think i'm going crazy .

2010-03-10T21:18:00.003+08:00

CRAZY CRAZY week means CRAZY CRAZY me ! :D Yeap, been feeling weird these few days .. but must snap out of it !! Okay nvm , didn't have CCA today , i think :X Opps , maybe i didn't check properly . hehe . But its okay , Focus Study is starting . NOOO !!! Gonna be damn busy sia . Tired sommore ): Anways , Maths starting these new Profit and Loss thingy that i completely don't understand . TYS 20 more questions ! Can't believe i finish 40 questions in 2 days :D YES ! I'm SuperGirl what :X So after school went leppak with Nabilah . Yeah , she hates the Nab calling . Hahas . So long never chat until 7.00 also cannot realize . So go home , online watch TV . Later wanna eat . YUM YUM ! Btw , my addiction for chocolate is going crazy had chocolate yesterday and today . Tmrw ? I WANT MORE ! Haix , i can grow f a t soon ! (freaking out) Will probably d o my TYS at nite . Okay GTG !

I hate when you talk about apples when we're talking about durians -__-

I feel so babo !

2010-03-06T21:40:00.006+08:00

Waiting for your call .

Weekends .... nothing much . As guessed , it was such a bore . Slack at home , play comp and stuff . Haix . Tmrw maybe staying at home also , do hmwk i guess ? Woke up really early today eventhough i slept like really late cos was chatting . Monday after school going to get my lenses ! Yehh , can't wait for Sports Carnival hope it doesn't rain . But will be pretty busy on Friday and weekends .. but at least better nothing . My babo brother's birthday also :X He gets one year older but hope doesnt get 1com taller . So embrassing ah , i sister shorter than him . But nvm , i dowan get taller later someone sad (; Hahas .

Anyways , feeling abit better thanks to someone cos these days feel abit out of place keep being unsure . Hope will be sure one day but i feel its just not now . Keeping the happiness and sharing the smile (: Will try to keep positivity in mind . Btw , i donno either if am blind or just plain babo . Yeah , i feel so babo ! But i know i'm not cos time will uncover everything from my eyesight and will make my heart be sure and secure of what i feel :D

if i keep falling , i'll fall right straight into the ground .

Boring Old Weekends .

2010-03-05T19:50:00.003+08:00

Wheels of suprises :P

Annyeonghaesayo people , updating my blog since i'm bored for now and the weekends . No more common test so no more weekend lessons .. stuck for the weekends with nothing to do . Maybe homework , but don't feel like doing it . Haix . Next weekend won't be free only this weekend especially when March holiday extra lessons starts and Focus Study , Going to be damn busy and stressing sia . So anyways today did nothing much , went library , eat , walk around , go home . What a life rite ? hahas . For Common Test , didn't do well for Physics and SS , others okay but my malay dropping ): I fail Sci and SS but 1 bloody freaking mark !! I improve alot on my Chemistry :D I like Chem way better than Physics , Mr See just makes everyone sleep -___- GOSH , need to back up man !! :P Btw can't wait for Sports Carnival next week . YIPEE ! Sitting arrange back to normal . YOU watch out ah , Taufiq ! Muahahaas . Like to disturb him , soo funny . hehe . Okay , i think going to eat , haven't eat mum's cooking for like 2 days . Hope i don't grow FAT !! :X Okay , annyeongaesayo !

Will i ever be sure ?

END OF CMT = HAPPY !

2010-03-03T15:11:00.003+08:00

Camwhore Chocolate :P

YES ! Finally finish CMT . Thought of updating yesterday but damn busy ah .. never play comp whole yesterday. Sad ): Overslept until NINE then went to ngaji . Gosh , tired . So yesterday after school went to buy Zhen Xing present . Hehe . Hope he likes it eventhough its not black :P

Now at school .. doing research .. well suppose to .. but then .. hehes ... Tmrw POA . SO GOOD LUCK Nabilah & Dayah . And i also pass CHEMISTRY ! Wohhooo ! :D March supplementary lessons will start and also Focus Study . But lucky my bdae not FOCUS study. Yehh . Ignore the above pic if you ppl want to but we left 25 morethings on the list . Hope can finish it by this year . Well one thing for sure 2010 is gonna be hell . SO STRESS ! so random me .

(LOVES)

Day by Day .

2010-03-01T17:22:00.002+08:00

Heys ! Seems like the day seems to be passing by so fast . Chemistry paper was okay . Hope i pass . Physics too which is tmrrw and the last paper ! WHOO ! :P I'm so happy , i just wanted to get over everything . Haix . Today was like i donno .. normal .. then no mood .. happy .. then sleepy when doing English File .. I donno whats wrong with me . My mood keeps changing . Whatever lah .. will try to be happy but will not force what i really feel . I try to be truthful to myself and everyone but .. .. nvm . Hahas :P

Sometime is wrong , i can sense it . I may be naive but i not that blind .. seems like something is going on behind my back . Is it just me or am i thinking negative but it so clear , i can see through it . Somehow , you were right about it . I thought i trusted these people .. now i donno who to trust . Someone help me get away from everything cos i'm sick and tired of the same things ):
Cos keeping it to myself is just not right .

what should i feel ?

2 more days to finishing CMT !

2010-02-28T16:08:00.003+08:00

Haven't update for sosososososo long already RITE ? hahas . Yeap , some may even think this stupid blog is dead . SHUPER GIRL to the rescue . LOL :X Anyways also been busy this week since its common test . Haix .. But ending soon which two more papers. Lucky not POA or else that will be my last paper . Actually wanted to go out with mum to Science Centre but tired ah , yesterday just went out for art exhibition to help out with my N-Level Art . Can't wait for Sports Carnival but not looking forward to flag day . Did that like last last week , i think . Like so tiring ah , i din't collect much ): But nvm , it was all hardwork (: well , suppose to study rite now but instead slacking . I feel like dozing off during weekends , no mood for anything study related .
Haix .

Anyways , if people change .. does the heart change too ? I donno , something is messing with my head . Can't get out of it . I keep being unsure , scared to take chances cos i'm so sick of all the mistake made but can never regret them , it was my decision . So what to do ?

g i v e u p /

Saying fcuk is OKAY ?

2010-02-17T18:55:00.003+08:00

Here to update about my pathetic boring school life .__________.

Since i got nothing to do , here i am to update this almost dead blog . Seriously i am in no mood rite now . Feel so tired . Still got homework . Damn it ! CCA is just horrible ! That stupid fcuking a++ho++ made stayback do her stupid stuff for her . End up going home at about 6.05 + ! 5 minutes counts to my precious time that is wasted . Common test is coming and i'm so busy . HOW TO STUDY ! have to do art sommore .. BYE ! so not in the mood to continue this ...

STUCK !

2010-02-09T17:41:00.008+08:00

CIP !

Today was just like any other day . Live(study),laugh(everyday) , love (frends) . Hahas . Just came back home from library doing Maths hmwk . Finally finish it . YEAH ! And also finally got time to play comp and update blog . Didn't have time to update about CIP on Saturday so just the pic i post . Got lots lots lots of pics but lazy upload lah :X ART is so URGHHS! that dumbass teacher got our N-Level confused . Now i donno a single thing to do . Haix . And also i got extra class tmrrw. Donno whether should go but obviously lessons are more important than CCA . SHEESH . She think she CCA got more priotity over STUDIES ! Go hell lah . COCK head . __ Man so angry lah ! okay nvm . So currently listening to Taylor Swift songs. Love her songs ! Hope Friday plan will go on . Anyways when shopping with Nab yesterday . Bought some stuff along with mum's present (:

YEHH! So long .. never .. have time with Nab ....... those days :P

Yeap probably theres many those days ... that will nvr come back ..Like how everything change so fast and still one question remains ... why is it your still stuck in the past ? While i have already move on not looking back not even a single minute . Shouldn't i hate you cos i made the decision but why it seems you dislike me . Isn't that what you wanted ? ME not being part of life anymore . Okay maybe i lied saying i don't care anymore but sometimes a deep scar can never heal . Everytime i looked on how different things seems i still wish i was there with you like the usual times but i chose not too cos i have my own reason and that reason is not that i've been influence but instead of not wanting to hurt myself and just find someone who can make me more happy . Maybe you didn't get me clear how i ended this but you will still be the cause of why that scar can nvr heal .

Loves !

The SHH ! Place .

2010-02-05T21:24:00.005+08:00

HALO ppl off earth !

Typical school girl ;)

On the way to Nab's house .

NAB hidding her pretty face .
Nab proving she studied MATH !
MY proof of doing ART !

THIS is SERIOUSLY CANDID !! She was singing song while doing some weird action so i sanpshot it hahas . Turn out good huhs?
This was also CANDID ! Pfft ..

Here to sumarise my day . So went to the library after school but before that went to change with Aliah then off to meet NAB ! Sorry nab , so used to calling ur Nab , see !? -__- Hahas . So finish my Art there .. bla bla ... nothing much lah . But today my bro just got back from malacca . SO FREAKING jealous . Wish everything would rewind back . Haix.. okay nvm . SO much FOR SUMARSING ... thats all i have .. Boring old me .. haix ... BYE!

Lollipop .. lollipop (randomness) :P

Home Boring Home !

2010-02-03T14:25:00.001+08:00

HEY ! In school now in the lab with aliah and nabilah . Aliah is being so noisy as usually and nab .. err ... i donno what she's doing haha . Not going to CCA i guess cos of Maths extra lesson ! And so STRESS ! so manny hmwk due by this week . Art is just killing me slowly ! Ouh , the reasoning blogging at skool cos at homw internet connection spoilt so is my cable . SUCKS! Now what am I suppose to do at home ? Haix ... I want to go out on weekends so BAD ! Everyone is just so busy .. sheesh . Get a life ppl . hahas . Okay nvm but maybe celebrating my mums bdae on Sunday actually her bdae is today . SO Happy Bdae Omma ! :P Well in bdae we eat cake but in Korean , seaweed soup ? Weird much but unique . Okay i'll end here before i get anymore random ... HAHAS . PEACE ! xoxoxo .

Learning Journey 2010 - ZOO !

2010-01-29T21:42:00.006+08:00

ZOO PICS :

Its suppose to be a bat :XSee the lion there .

THE tall giraffe . ZEBRAS . Theres a small orang hutan there :PColourfull PARROT !I forgot what this is but i think its an emu . KANGAROO !

WHITE TIGER ! But quite blur huhs?

IN the BUS !

NAB & Me . Sorry NAB ! hahas .

I got CUT ! LOL .

Break time lah .
I like this PIC !

FAST sh0t .
S.S tk leh ?
Mirror Reflect - ion .
Group Pic while watching elephant show .(NAB!) 2nd group pic - Tram ride :D

I think thats all the pics i have . If i have more i'll post it tomorrow or some other time .

All i have to say IT WAS SUPER AWESOME ! I guess . Hahas . Love the animals and stuff so freaking adorable ! So glad we went as a class . Somehow 4/2 is going to turn out being a fun class eventhough 2/1 can never be replaced in my heart . For me its just so hard to get over some things . But nvm moving on , hahas . Btw SHINEE and F.T Island are IN SPORE ! OMG ! I so wanna go but busy sia . Go out with family and school blabla ... Haix .

And what makes you think I care about your FCUKING problem !? I have problems my self lah what makes you think your problem more special . WHATEVER LAH ! OKAY BYE ! :P

That one feeling .

2010-01-26T18:18:00.005+08:00

Here to update again or else my blog will be officially dead ! Ermm ... think of only updating it after or before 10 days but kinda planning of ending this blog around June or maybe end of this year . haix . OK NVM ! Not going to post so much need to finish Art and stuff . Still haven't eat ya know :X Hungry ! Sometimes seems to be on my mind tat won't let me be happy but i donno what ! ARGHH ! Weird lah . But pls people if your not going to make me feel better just SHUT UP ! So irritating lah . I find it upsetting when ppl laugh when I'm serious . I just think ppl don't get me . Anyways , excited for LJ 2010 . Hope it doesn't suxs . SEE YA !

I love going down Memory Lane sometimes . No matter if i hate it now or last time .

Am i FATED ?

2010-01-18T20:18:00.004+08:00

HEY ! Here to update . Yehh you might think its dead since didn't post anything for 10 FREAKING DAYS ! But so much going on as usual . But going to stay POSITIVE no matter what . YEHH ! Kurokechi ! And kokchongma , i'm not going to be the sad girl i use to be . Eventhough, no matter how sad i am . I'm strong now , not letting a worth of tear been seen by anyone not wanting to think i am weak . am i fated to live in sadness ?

LIVE :
Buut seriously , i'm so tired of fighting , crying , angry . When i thought i want to be happy for once , sadness comes to me again . I feel like no one is there for me anymore . Whatever i do alwyas the one who seems to be the bad girl here . No matter how i hard i try . I just wanna people to know . HEARING IS NOT ENOUGH ! am i hiding too much?

LAUGH :
I can say i more cheerful last few days,i guess(not sure) , but since what happen , i can't count on no one to make me laugh anymore cos you were the first chingu (frend) who makes me laugh(always) . But now i decided to put you as the past , i still trying hard to be happy but not counting on no one just the natural things . Honestly , i forgive but i never forget . Thats what you use to say but i never believe now i guess i know what it means . THANKS CHINGU ! am i forcing my happiness?

LOVE :
I love watching K Dramas . The love plot is short and simple unlike Indo Dramas until 200 + episode at last happy ever after also right . Haix . But to me , happy ever after is not in real life . NOW : watching Princess Hours . Decided to watch it cos last time i don't quite understand it but now i do . I like how the bigung(princess) fells in love with the complete stranger instead of the chingu(friend) . Just like my life , when i just realise it was like a drama but a different plot all together . The girl in dramas usually end up falling in love with a completely stranger , enemy or whatever instead of their own friend or someone who cares for them the most . Yeh , for me its not possible to someone who you can forever think as only a friend and that your heart tells you love someone who think you can never love. Love is dramatic , but always true and pure . SARANG ! am i really gonna know whats love?

Lying if i say i don't miss the past , the truth if i say i dowan to go back to the past .

So much goin' ON !

2010-01-08T22:51:00.002+08:00

YEHH ! Feeling the happy mood now these days . Been smiling , been laughing (alot) , been positive ! Hahas . I donno whats gotten into me :X Lets just say i'm starting 2010 in more of a happy serious way . Yes . N-LEVELS = STRESS ! But also must learn to relax and be happy neh ? NOW working on my art prep work while chating with Faris . Been to RP open house yesterday punye yesterday . Hahas . FUN lorh . But tired like hell ! My legs,my shoulder aching . So didn't teman Nabilah cut hair . SORRY SORRY ! Super Junior <3 . sempat sey ...
Ouh yah speaking about Nabilah she was not in class today since busy with OGL . Man , i should have sign up for OGL but i guess not eligible for ppl like me -__- . So after school when library with Aliah to study Maths . It was super confusing . Have to do it again when i'm free . PLUS ! Art is killing me . HELP ! I wish to see Nabilah on MONDAY ! :P (everyday is a free wish day) *winks

I now live every second of my life , not wanting to change a single thing in the past , cos thanks to you , I'M STRONGGER !

3RD DAY OF SECOOL !

2010-01-06T19:13:00.002+08:00

Konichiwa ! Find time to update since been busy or lazy since the past few days . But now rushing like hell to finish up ART ! UGGHH! I hate this . Later have to go ngaji . Pfft . Tired sia and stress !!! But going to be damn worsers once we prepare for N-Levels . With prelims , focus study and stuff . GAHH! I think i'll be going crazy by April ! Tomorrow 1st TIME goin' school late . YEH! Going to meet Aliah n Nabilah first i think ;P So bye peeps going to do the rest of art stuff now . -__-

HELP ME !

Happy New Year !

2009-12-31T12:00:00.001+08:00

Just shut up .

HAPPY NEW PEOPLE ! 2010 IS HERE ! :D

Hahas . Yeap . Can't believe 2009 has passed . OMG ! All i have to say is this year suxs . Well actually last year . Hahs . Not going to post long long . So getting ready for skool but still need more time ! Bought shoes and stuff but goin; out for BBQ with mum on Saturday . Yarh , i know , its kinda late for that since skool is opening . Haven't bought new bag ! GAHH ! Really want to buy larh D : But nvm i bet 2010 is gonna be totally awesome ! ITS when i have my SWEET SIXTEEN! Yehh . So bye and have a happy new year ppl ! :P

CIP tomorrrow .

2009-12-28T21:02:00.004+08:00

Yeah , suddenly got school tomorrow for CCA CIP . I go cos need CIP points ^.^ And maybe thought of buying new bag . Ermm . And been catching on with Art Prep Work (just started !) Man , other work also haven't finish . Physics , gosh , i'm not even going to finish it . Its too much !! Then Wednesday buying school shoes and stuff with mum . So left only 4 days to prepare for school . So freaking nervous . And Aliah already plan to meet for the first day of schhool . Semangat jer budak tuh . LOLS . And howcome i always like stuck to the computer evnthough like got tons of thing to finish :X hahs , ask myself for what . sheesh . Actually been on youtube super - junior - ing . (doesn't make sense) NO lah , watch super junior videos . The SJ movie was nice . Kibum main actor <3>

MOVIE !

2009-12-22T23:04:00.003+08:00

ANYOHAESAYO -

Today , went out with Ayu & Taufiq for movie . Watch Princess & The Frog . Yeah , Yeah , i know its kinda lame .. fairytale shit but it was quite good . Really . Love the ending . So happyily ever after . Hahs . The reason didn't watch New Moon cos SOMEBODY (Taufiq) didn't want to watch it . He says its crap . So don't watch lor . Man , i donno when can i ever watch it . Haix . Anyways , in the train home rite .. Rahayu was reading Teenage magazine then suddenly i saw FT ISLAND poster . LOL . Then she give me lah . She also dowan what the poster . hahas .

:X

Heard the retest result was out . So happy for ppl who pass and see yah next year .
For those who didn't , there's nothing left to say . SO BYE !
And next year is sure gonna be a hell of a ride .
I donno if i'm gonna come out stronger this time .
Whats done is done .
I'm opening a new book .
Well i guess u get my point . hahas .

sarang .

Disaster holiday ?

2009-12-21T23:52:00.002+08:00

Yeap . The holiday for 3 days at chalet so like supper boring but enjoy the FOOD though . YUM! And been quite lucky since then . Alhamdullilah . Hahas . But since school is opening been busy . This week busy . Tomorrow going out . 4 days working , maybe . Left Wednesday free . Next week catch up on homework and school . Still thinking of buying new bag pack . ERMM . Anyways going watch movie tmrrw with Ayu & Taufiq . Been wanting to go out so long already but every one busy . WELL , now still got time to search for pics for Art .

ITS like been 2 - 3 weeks since the lost . My heart hurts so bad that time but now all thats left is the scar . But i learn to move on and just be thankful to life :D
Happiness here i come :P

<3

2009-12-17T01:18:00.002+08:00

Jonghun <3

Ignore the picture .

Just can't stop getting into Korean .

Anyways, its already like 1+

And i can't sleep

Still need to pack for Saturday chalet

So no mood weh to go holiday

School almost starting

And somehow not confirm if i'm working on

24 to 27 .

Bought books already .

Now ? Doing nothing just lazing around the comp.

Want to watch Korean Drama but donno which

Drama to watch .

Haiz .

And ouh yah , for ppl taking retest ,

HOPE YOU ALL DO WELL .

So hopping to see my buds next year.

Well,thats all i guess .

And i just anyhow choose blogskin .

Prefer plan simple ones .

Completely different .

2009-12-07T16:45:00.003+08:00

SUP! Just got back home from shopping with my mum . Hahhahs. Yeap. And i still can't believe wespent like almost a $150+ in The Faceshop . Yes i know No. 1 comestic brand in Korea. Hehs . Other than that i'm still hoping to go out shopping again but with you guys . And Taufiq its TODAY! I know. Can't wait . But i found out i'm going on holiday from19 to 21 . Arghh .. 2010 is almost coming and i totally have no mood for holiday-ing. Plus my pp8 low ): Can't text anyone . Sheesh . Gonna be so borrinng . GAHH! Mum said she will topup for me on the 26 or 27. I have to wait like 2 more weeks for that and i'm running low on cash . double ): And got i craving for durian yesterday so my dad bought some . YUM :P Donno why ppl don't like durians ? well their lost ... hahas . Btw i'm 2 more freaking episode to the Korean Drama but sadly no time to watch .
Well gtg . See ya (;

The places that reminds me of memories that reminds me of the past that reminds me of being your friend .

Flashbacks ... Those were the days .

2009-12-03T16:54:00.002+08:00

Here to update after a long silence in my blog . Hahas . Nothing much going but i know that i spent the last few nights flashbacking the old days . I donno why i keep missing it ),:
But anyways holidays are boring me to death . Can't take it anymore . Only till 4 days and i can GO OUT WITH YOU GUYS AGAIN! yehh! so looking forward to it . New Moon is opening today and i don't think i can ever watch in the cinema . Everyone's to busy and i'm running out of cash . Seriously . Thought of looking for a job but i donno ... haiz . Buying books with my mum tomorrow, i know still kinda early but i'm so exicted to go to Sec 4 . Been thinking alot lately and i better pass MATHS & SCIENCE if not BYE BYE ! I'm saying that if i don't go to sec 5 it will be fine but if i do i would be so .... ! Hhahs. Okay gtg finish watching my Korean Drama . Bye peeps !

(;

The person who used to make me smile is not the person who makes me feel like i'm the saddest person in the world .

I miss the normal things ..

2009-11-27T10:19:00.003+08:00

HEYYO !

Its already Hari Raya Haji . Time fly so fast and still i still cant forget all that has happened . It was so sudden that it make my heart break more than anything . So life will be back as normal soon. Somehow i wish 2010 would come faster . The holidays is such a bore. So looking forward to the year o10 ! Hahs . Still got alot of skool work to get up on .Haiz . I feel like going out but at the same time like damn lazy . Ouh , New Moon is coming out ! I so want to watch . haix..
Anyways , got to watch My Lovely Sam Soon . The drama is damn funny lah . Hahas . Any i could learn alot from watching Korean Dramas . Really :P Hahas .
Ignore my randomness :X
And i really do miss the things i use to do . Go to school . Hangout somewhere . Do hmwk . Go library . Talk with my besties . Things won't be like that anymore next year huh ? :(
Ouh k i gotta go back helping my omma . HEHS .

I'm scared to get to close to someone , who know in the end they will just dissapoint me .

18 November 2009 - The Saddest Day Ever .

2009-11-22T22:22:00.002+08:00

I'm so sorry i haven't update like for so so so long . Haven't been online since that day . Won't tell you what but all i know i'll never forget that day . Still can't belive this is happening but life has to go on right ? So i have nothing much to say just ... goodbye .

Life is the dream . Death is the reality .

The only day out . So far..

2009-11-11T17:35:00.003+08:00

HEYYO !

Here to update cos dowan to keep a big gap on not updating and also went out with Nabilah today. Only the two of us . So sad. Only two of us ! But nvm hoping to have BFF outing after retest . SO anyone taking retest . GOOD LUCK ON FRIDAY AND MONDAY ! And yah i got one of the items in my WANT LIST. Hahas . Also stop by Cotton On but the prices are so unreasonble i rather buy somewhere else but the stuff there also quite nice. Anyways, not going overseas this holiday , like normal . So hopefully i'll just laze around at home or go out(sometimes). Btw, I'm so jealous of the ppl that already finish O-Levels ! I wish i can just get over N-Levels already . And i'm super scared but excited at the same time for next year.
But lets talk about holidays first, still got some prep work and hmwrk to do . Also hope that i can get tickets to watch NEW MOON ! Opening 3 December ! Should probably book tickets . Ermm .
Hoping for alot of things,one of them which is hoping for my hair to grow long which is taking forever . And getting a job have crossed my mind for a few times but i'll pass . Hahas . Okay .

Anyongheegaesayo! ( hope i spell it right . hehs )

Holidays .

2009-11-05T15:54:00.003+08:00

SHH ! I have a SECRET !

Anyo ! :D

Holidays has officially started and i already feel bored to death at home doing the same things. Wish i could go out . Haiz. Anyone free? Hehe. And yah, holidays also mean Korean Drama Time but haven't find the right drama to watch. Anyways,i have nothing to blog . Just the normal things . Nothing big eventhough this is my 100th POST ! Yes it is. Hahas. Okay i'll update again when there is something interesting to blog.

Enjoy your holidays ! :D

Last Day of School 2009.

2009-10-30T22:18:00.004+08:00

anyong haseyo !

CIP PHOTOS:

BFF .

MELAYUS.

ME AND BELLAME AND ALIAH

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL :

Had a crazy last week of school. Really ah. So last day of school today was just so normal man,not like last year,all that crying was just unforgetable. hahas. Miss those days. But one year is almost passing us by,no doubt everyone is gonna forget the old times. I wouldn't. Just that i find 2009 just sucks core. Hope to have a better time next year. But i guess no more enjoying for me? Study Study Study. Got my report book ! Fail 3 and phew PROMOTED ! I'm glad but i don't get it,i fail really badly. But nvm. I so wanna improve my Maths And Science. Maths is a MUST if i wanna pass through N-Levels .And btw I'm going crazy for shopping! AYU when can we go !? I desperately need to shop. HEHES . But i guess have to wait for Taufiq retest. ALL THE BEST ! Also got out class photo. Don't even wanna say anything about it. Haiz.

Somehow,when i feel i get attached to a friend,someone always has to come in between.

And i'm the one who has to give in for the sake of that friend not thinking how much it hurts me and taking away all that i felt happy with. I did it so that friend can be happy with a better friend. But why that friend never appreaciated.

Now i'm strong and not stupid,so i'm not giving in this time.

Anyunghee gae-sae-yo

Art Club Field Trip :|

2009-10-27T18:38:00.002+08:00

Oh my! Haven't update for so long. Only manage to edit my blogskin and stuff. Not that i dowan to update its just that I've been abit sick the last few days so I'm lazy and that i'm not that free this week. Also i'm like damn tired. I so desperately need some sleep. Anyways,watching Full House now. FYI, K DRAMA. Hehes. And to AYU, sorry not going for movie. MJ movie is not worth watching to me. And TAUFIQ,you must study damn hard. I want to see you next year ! OUH yah, Art Club field trip was soso. Okay lah at least not that boring. And my painting suck core. Last minute in a rush so just paint anyhow. School was normal did nothing much. Post exam was not has fun as the Sec 1 and 2. OH gawd, i miss those years. I think everyone would agree that 2009 was the most unmemorable year i've ever had in Riveerside?

+_+

I don't get why my feelings are a JOKE to you? Its not okay. Its hurtful. You would never know and feel what i've going through rite now. I get that your trying to cheer me up but i just dowan you to treat my memories and that person a laughing matter. When i thought i could trust and count on a person,they just had to let me down.

And to confess, I never let go of having a friend like you,eventhough you make me upset at times but when you make me smile and laugh, those days I spent with you as my friend will always be treasured. And yes, its you know who.

Living in Doubts of Lies

2009-10-20T21:24:00.004+08:00

Today was such a tiring day eventhough i didn't do much in school.And i came late today.Well it wasn't really late its just that i didn't realise it was 7.30+. But oh well i'll try come early tmrw. Btw i'm so freaking HAPPY that i don't have to do a retest on the subjects i fail. But hope overall i pass in my Report Book ! That means i get to be advance to SEC 4! WhOO! Feel very realive but also worried for next year. Have to do super well ! OH and i finish watching My Girl. It was such a great drama. Hehe. Maybe i have more time to watch sommore K Drama during the holidays.

I'm so confused of the feelings i'm having. One minute i'm happy an another i'm all no mood. Whats wrong with me? Its not about you know what. I've moved on from that. Its just i'm always in doubt when i'm facing problems. Its just i can't find the truth or the right answer.

No one can help me but only myself. And a lie can be convincing but could also be the truth.

Its easy lying to other people but its not easy to lie to yourself.

Holidays = Korean Drama Time !

2009-10-18T14:21:00.002+08:00

Hahas. Yeap true. Currently watching My Girl. 4 more episodes to the finishing. Wonder what to watch next ? Ermm. I'm updating cos Rahayu ask me to update. So why not ? HEES :X
And i didn't sleep the whole night on Friday till Saturday doing you know what. Haha.

Thats all for now. GTG !

End Of Year Results

2009-10-15T19:17:00.003+08:00

BANG! Who died?

UPDATES people! Okay 2 days of school was just plain normal except for Wednesday where everyone got so ... because of EOY results. Yeap yeap. Our class was so dissapointed. THE thought of being retained scares me but no worries i pass 3 subjects including ENGLISH so might have a chance! YEHH! So glad there's np school. All in my mind is sleeping. Really ah,
damn tired. But nvm. Got my N-Levels ART already. Got it like weeks ago but forget to blog about it. Still generating some ideas for the topic i'm choosing. HAIZ.

Feeling okay now. Just abit. Currently chatting with Taufiq. But try to ignore what ever feeling i have eventhough it means lying to myself. When i know i'm not willing it just leaves me with no choice. Just have to keep going with my mum's advice! HAHS.

;)

Just be patient.

2009-10-12T14:48:00.004+08:00

Damn ah so tired today lucky not going jalan raya AGAIN! Hahas. But going tmrrw. :P And finally had time to change my blog skin. WHEE! Hahas. Actually nothing much to post today lah. And kinda got addicted to Korean Music already. LOLS. Now i suddenly remembered,my mum used to give me this advice: Just let it all go and be patient,one day the person will realised that he or she has made a mistake and will soon get what they deserve. I took this advice 2 - 3 years ago and yes it eventually did happen and was true. WHOA it is like my mum predicted the future which is now. Hahas. Okay gtg peeps. <3

Tears of dissapointment not regret.

2009-10-10T22:36:00.003+08:00

YES dissapointed not regret. I know i've done things that makes me regret something but i know whats best for me eventhough it puts me in such misery but its all for the people i care.
I just need someone so badly right now but i guess no one in the world would know how sad i feel. But it was my choice to let it all go after 7 years of knowing you ! And i also know your smart enough to choose your own friend. A better friend,someone you trust more than me.
I don't blame anyone but myself not even the school for being cruel.
YES the class seperation thing has made things so hard this year
But also made me found new friends who are there to support me (:
I finally had the courage to text you and said what i feel but all i heard was OKAY?
I setting it straight here.
I don't care if ppl know and saying i'm all emo..
I never felt so dissapointed that your that heartless.
I know your weak when it comes to feelings.
But i've put all that aside and say it all why can't you?
If you don't care then your simply heartless.
I heard all sort of stuff about you but i never believe in ppl's words cos i trust that your not that kind of girl since i know you for quite long.
But i you never gave me a chance to know you better.
With that its better to go our seperate ways.
Be pissed and show attitude for all i care
But from what i know i never hated you and hope we can just be normal..

ashikin ):

Jalan Raye - Yesterday.

2009-10-09T23:04:00.000+08:00

BFF !
BFF informal !
ME ?

ME AND ALIAH !ME AND AMIRAH !ME AND AQIDAH !ME AND DAYAH 1 !
ME AND DAYAH 2 !ME AND DAYAH 3 !
ME AND DAYAH 4 !ME AND DAYAH 5 !
ME AND DAYAH 6 ! (LOL)ME AND DAYAH 7 !ME AND DAYAH 8 !
ME AND DAYAH 9 !ME AND DAYAH 10 !ME AND FARHAN !ME AND FARIS!ME AND HANAH !ME AND HUMI !
ME AND SHOLIHIN !
ME AND NAZHIFAH !
ME AND NABILAH !ME AND IZHAR ! ( this pic looks f. funny )
ME AND ISHAQ ! ( hehe, have to bend down )

ME AND YANA !
ME AND YUSUF !
YANA,SHOLIHIN,HANAH,ME AND AZLI.

Sorry for the many many many pictures.

Thats all i have.

Didn't manage to get the group photos.

But nvm.

Putting aside all the tense situation aside.

I DID HAD A GREAT TIME JALAN RAYE.

Sadly some has to leave early. ):

Today plans are cancel cos raining.

Glad so much cos i'm v.v.v tired and my eyes feel swollen.

HAIX!

Feel guilty for being on the computer.

But heck care EXAMS ARE OVER!

WOOHOO!

So tmrrw plans are still on.

Ermm..

:P

( purposely posted as the yesterday date)

Rushing Rushing Day.

2009-10-05T18:02:00.013+08:00

No mood to blog just gonna summerise my day.

Maths and SS exam was a killer. Really.

Off to CWP after that with Aliah since Nabilah didn't come D:

Finish some of my Art Prep Work.

(Still not done) DUE BY TOMORROW!

I'm so DEAD.

Ok nvm.

Nabilah Hope you feel better.

Eventhough i donno what it is like to lose someone but i know

it hurts so badly then anything.

Only time will heal your heart babe.

Wish everyone good luck for the last few papers(:

Busy Busy.

2009-10-02T16:19:00.003+08:00

I'm blinded by one eye.

Yeaps. Hate exams and sommore no time for myself. Finishing Art Prep work. Gawwdd!! I'm very tired! Need to finish about 4 pages by today! Currently listening to Dear Maria(man i love this song) and chatting rahayu and taufiq. Going jalan raya tomorrow. Hees. Excited~
Geo paper today was fucking fcuking fcking hard. But nvm that. I need to past all the other 3 paper so bad. As for Art i'm not that worried lah. It doesn't involve anything mentally. Hahas.
Then to Mac for lunch with Nabilah and Aliah. (:

i'm still not feeling better. Everytime i think about it i wonder will i regret what i do like i have always do in the past. Its all coming back to me and hitting me really hard. Like i said if you think and keep saying she is better and stuff its obvious you don't need me anymore and better off with her. Sorry i still want you to be a part of me but its just that things have change so much and i did everything but when things fall apart it falls apart. I give in.

shikin.

Exams - Physics. D:

2009-10-01T11:42:00.002+08:00

HEYYOO! Here at the library now with Nabilah,Aqidah,Yana and Aliah. Before that we went to eat at KFC for breakfast but too full to eat. Physics exam so so lah but 2nd paper very hard. D:
Can't wait to jln raya next week eventhough the spirit of raya is like so dead because of exams.
Tomorrow Geo exams. ARHH!

I know many people will side the one that is more known but i don't really care that much.
As a friend i try my best to be friendly,understanding and all but you never apreaciated me.I want a friend who is always there for me and understands me and not only look at my flaws and also encouraging.Im not good enough for you. I am willing to let this go as i will know you will find someone better. I'm sorry. Its hurts me but it will hurt me more to be with you as i know i'm lieing tomyself that i never felt happy being with you. I admit that i've done things to hurt you and i'm sorry. Did you care to admit? Being in different classes as made us grow further apart. And i know people change even myself. I'm writing this to let you know. What do you treat me as? Hate me, but i never will hate you. But i'm just dissapointed.

i'm not crying cos this is my choice.

I'm sorry..

Emotional Pain = Stress/Sick.

2009-09-29T18:47:00.002+08:00

Yeap. Its true. I'm getting miserable and miserable each day and somore Nabilah didn't come to school today so no one to cheer me up like always. I also went home from school yesterday cos felt really really sick. Vomitted more than 5 times. I have no idea why. And since then i don't have such appeatite to eat. Even if i do, i'll only eat a little. Currently the stress of exams are killing me! ARH! I feel like sleeping earlier today.

I donno somehow things just got worse. I know people make mistakes in life even I but it doesn't seem fair that people keep blaming me and pointing out my flaws. Nobody is perfect you know?I've always put in effort in the little things i do but never got a simple thank you at all. I've gave in too you but why do i still deserve this? I didn't know your heartless. If your reading this, i hope your happy making me cry in misery every single day. THANKS. D,:

A lier never admits.

2009-09-22T17:06:00.007+08:00

HEY! Can't belive two days of Raya gone and back to school for exam! Okay lah no hard. But my feeling for the festive season is nutruel. No much feeling. Yesterday at JB was the worst. Ate so much that i had a stomach ache! OUCH. And i only collected about 50 bucks for 2 days D: Aim this year is 300! ANyways,glad that can eat back at canteen but so use to fasting ah. Hees. I can't resist the temptation to shop!

...................................................

I used to cry so much over something but not i decided to stay strong and positive even though it hurts me so much that you don't care that much.I understand i'm different and now in 3/2 thats why you treat me different. But the past stills lives within us.

I try to understand and not hurt you eventhough you have hurt me deeply.

I'm never gonna be good enough for you

I can't pretend that I'm alright

I'm sorry i can't be perfect

I try not to think about the pain I feel inside

All the years you spent with me now seem so far away

And it feels you don't care anymore.

I change some of the lyrics.

Okay wish me luck for MT paper tomorrow (:

2009-09-19T22:40:00.013+08:00

Yes i lived. I laughed. I'm loved.

Haha.I hope things gets better and better.

But at the same time confusion and worries hit me.

But lets not talk about that.

HAPPY BELATED TO ISHAQ :P
PICS from Ishaq's bdae:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NIKKI :)

PICS from Nikki's Suprise bdae yesterday:

PS: SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL MY FRIENDS.

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

And sorry for the many many pictures :D

hehe tk sabar nyer nk raye!

Another movie.

2009-09-11T19:59:00.005+08:00

Your convincing but i'm not stupid.

YEPP! Watch UP with Nabilah after Maths Remedial. The movie was so sad lah. Really.Then off to buy my bag then to Library. So thats all uhh. Nothing much. ):

My life is soo normal.

:C

Movie outing yesterday . .

2009-09-10T20:26:00.009+08:00

AYU LOL.

Christine think she so tall. LOL. -_-
ayu and me.

ayu and shikin. Yeap took this after movie (:

CLOSE UP.

Sangee and Christine on the see - saw.

Ish so childish. LMAO :D

NICE POSE SANGEE.

ION,ORCHARD.

SAKURA @ YISHUN.

*Most pictures grabbed from Christine.

YESTERDAY:
Went to Orchard and then Yishun yesterday.

Watch The Proposal. I didn't expect the movie to be quite interesting.

Then we went to Orchard Ion to look around.

Off to Yishun to eat Sakura.

End up only 5 ppl eat there. -__-

TODAY:

Physics class.

Most ppl turned up.

Then off to CWP to accompany Nab shopping.

*Jealous!

Nvm, end of year i shop like crazy hehe!

TOMORROW:
Maths at 9am! HAIZ.

I hate waking up early but who cares.

I'm going shopping. My turn Nab! :P

. . . . . . . . . .

And i donno why ppl became so irritating in a different sort of way. ermm..

Blog skin changed.

2009-09-07T23:37:00.007+08:00

Yeap. Love this blogskin. So does ayu. Still helping her out to change her blogskin.I know kinda late to be posting but what the heck. I have too much time. Planning to go out on Wednesday with friends. Hope its a confirm! Haven't go out for like a long time. Have extra classes on Thursday and Friday. Haiz. Only one more week till Hari Raya!
Ok thats it. Want to watch some TV.

Everything's back to normal.

2009-09-02T18:52:00.001+08:00

UPDATES! Today was like so tiring lah. Long story. Really. And when i say normal..it means school. For the other stuff i not sure. Photo taking today. :D And i gotten better. Not that sick anymore. But still quite exhausted. And yah, Art Club today was like WHOA! Different. But it was kinda fun lah..at least we get too know each other abit better. Still got homework. I'll try to do it while watch Singapore Idol. (If i can)
Tomorrow back to fasting. HAIZ.

You treat me like a robot. You think i don't have feelings or you just dowan to see through it. Hurt me in whatever way but your still part of my life. You don't treat me like before. Where's the person i counting on to make me smile again like always.
Your the reason i cry.

Sorry i have to bring this out eventhough i'm quite energetic today.

No matter what,your still the person i known since the past.

Nothing much.

2009-08-25T21:01:00.001+08:00

YEHH! I fixed my comp! Finally can use it. And so damn lucky the files in my comp are not deleted. phew.. Anyways,here to update again.And I just realised my blogskin looks very weird cause i'm currently using Internet Explorer. Clearly stated that this blogskin would look effing great in Mozilla Firefox. -___- And i got ayu tagging my blog non-stop. Don't mind that. Btw got back my CT papers. Arghh.. i don't even wanna talk about it D: Fasting now okay2 lah. Just that i get impatient when i have to wait for break fast so i purposely go home late. Hehe.
Finish all english assignments! Left with Malay due on Friday. I still haven't finish my freaking thick book! Nothing much to blog so i better get off the comp.

BYE!

P.S Happy Birthday Taufiq! :D

Flooded with tears.

2009-08-21T20:09:00.002+08:00

HEYY HEYY! Back to update again. I really really really can't get over it. I did try to stop it but tears just keeps flowing. I never cried so hard over something before. Thanks for those who are there for me. But i guess no more crying tomorrow.(Nanti batal puase). hehe. I'll try not to think so much. BUT HOW?

YEAP. PUASA is tomorrow. So excited. Buke puase kat luar. Yeh! Originally going to JB but change of plan since everyone is so worn out after one week of school/work. I want to sleep and wake up late! Seriously, tk cukop tido sey. Penat :O And i also cut hair. It looks okay but i miss my old hair. Tk per lah at least can grow back.
Mid Year so far fail Maths n English. PASS MALAY!! So happy! Pizza treat today also. YUM! Didn't play blindmice or follow Nabilah go library cos dowan to miss last episode of Suci! Finally finish the 274 episode! :D

I'm feeling super hungry now :P

I'm tired of being hurt,when all i try to do is just be a friend.

Still can't get over it!

2009-08-19T19:51:00.003+08:00

1ST: WATCH ORPAN!

2ND:CUT MY HAIR.
3RD:DYE MY HAIR.
4TH:COMPLETE FASTING.
5TH:FINISH THIS WEEK HOMEWORK.
6TH:REBOND HAIR.
7TH:HAVE A LAPTOP(not going to happen.)
8TH:SAVE AT LEAST $100.
9TH:PASS AT LEAST 3 OR MORE SUBJECTS.

10TH:HAVE LONG HAIR!

So many wants for the last 4 months of the year. SO fast 2009 is going to end.I so so looking forward to 2010. Hari Raya also. Hehe. :D School now okay okay lah. But can't be bothered to blog about it. And yeap i guessed it. The class seperation thing really changed everything this year. But there's nothing i can do. Just except change and forget the past.

D,: Still trying hard not to feel sad or to cry.

I can't stop this feeling.

2009-08-17T19:04:00.003+08:00

S for SADNESS?

I really can't stop crying since recess. WHATS WRONG WITH ME!?
Mixed feeling. I never thought this problems would approached me.
When i just tasted the taste of happiness,it has to go D:
I feel like a sore loser,destined to live in misery.
To make things clear,i didn't cry bcos of anyone.
I wouldn't blame my friends for what happen.
Its just a personal problem.

MOVING ON,exams are killing me with GUILT. Cos i don't think i can pass. English homework has been postponed,so is our class pizza treat! Finally can finish art. Haiz. Went to the library to get a book for the Ulusan buku.
Tomorrow, CHEMISTRY!
Ermm still thinking of what to buy for Taufiq.

THANKS,for your care and concern. ;D

Freaking Fridays.

2009-08-14T22:43:00.002+08:00

YEAH. Finally weekend is here! So happy i can finally rest. But still need to study for Geo. Today went home at 7+. So late! Then went to watch Suci then went to ngaji :D And now here i am blogging. Donno why suddenly so free to update for 3 straight days. Isit becos there so much to blog or isit becos i'm bored and have no life? Ermm. Being doing Facebook quizes for the last 20 minutes and reading Horoscopes. Yeah i know you can't really trust what we read. Seriously,i play comp like almost everyday. Actually after school went to RP then off to play blind mice and block catching with normies. FUN sia. Friday either we play badminton or block cathcing..but long time never go Causeway...errmm..
BTW,PIZZA treat postponed D:

She's everything i'm not.
Its just too hard to say it. I need someone.
THERE goes my + attitude for the week and also my emoing days..
You guess it,my misery did burst and i can't hold it back. SORRY.

You made me happy but the past misery just can't fade away.

Can't wait to end common test!

2009-08-13T20:39:00.003+08:00

I'm too happy to share my laughters.

Had a crazy tiring week but feels like everything seems to be exciting. Emotional feelings are not approaching me like they use to. GLAD. I don't feel like emoing this month. Need all the energy i could get for fasting in abt 1 or 2 weeks time. Tk sabar yer nk RAYE! hehe. Ish, puase lom datang nk raye. +___- Also happy i'm healthy and not sick. Common Test week leh. (Maths tmrrw..haix)
But have to stay today has lots of suprises and if you know me, i'm terrible at keeping secrets but in the end my lips are still sealed. :P Wanting to sign up for the Old Folks home CIP! Really need those hours. GOOD NEWS too today, our class won the NDP thing! Mcm tk percaye gitu. Somehow i wish the effort was not from our class cos i don't think 3/2 is ever going to be like my previous class. Sway ah. Harap2 next year org2 tk perlu smue stayback. I know,i'm mean. But its for the sake of the class. I can stand every lesson with all the kecohness(hehe). Another GOOD NEWS, MT dah combine balek! SO DAMN HAPPYY! I miss my friends in 3/1 and that MT is the only class we can be together. :D
Flooded with homework this week,i'll try to handle it. Finish maths portfolio.
Still left ulusan buku and eng. powerpoint.

Having a + attitude just feels good but it doesn't mean my past misery is gone.
It just stays in my heart ready to burst anytime!

<3

I'm feeling too overstressed.

2009-08-11T18:50:00.003+08:00

I got lots of homework not done yet. I'm focusing on ART cos i do not not to get scolding from Mdm Lis.. hai..seram aku! Maths Portfolio do in class (: Went library after school then off to RP with the normies. AND I'M FREAKING OUT! I ATE TOO MUCH TODAY! I'm scared i'll gain weight. I make sure that won't happen and i also need to grow taller..ermm.Still thinking of what to buy Taufiq..why must he be obbsed with soccer. It so dumb lah. And Happy Advance Bdae to RAVIN! Also hope Dayah gets better :D
*Going to wish Ravin tomorrow. And so many irresponsible ppl leave stuff on the class ledge. Aku,Nabilah,Aliah ngan Xue Min jugak yang Cikgu harapkan. Hehe. Mcm step baek jek..

I feel alot of hatred in the air but all of them seem nice for me to hate except for that stupid fucking asshole! I never hated someone so much. You're always the cause why the class is never peaceful. Why many teachers hate the class. You're the cause i have no hope for...
Mixed feelings. I want to punch you in the face but don't even wanna look at ur disgusting ugly face. And serious sey. Bende2 kau buat ah sungguh tk perlu -____-
Senang2 kan..aku pon tk yah heiran ngan kau lah wei. _|_

And now i don't give a DAMN care if those other PPL call me emo shit...shy...quiet..no life..selenger.. or whatever.
Donno me don't judge me. I know i'm not easygoing with ppl but thats just part of me.
It takes time. I never even tried to be someone i'm not.
emo emo lah sey. _|_

2009-08-10T17:56:00.002+08:00

Somehow, i wish i can see the future up high in the sky.

HAPPY BELATED 44TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE.

Gosh 4 days of holiday and i'm left with only today since i already when JB for 2 days.
FRIDAY doesn't really count cos was really busy that day.
And i still haven't DONE LOTS AND LOTS of homework espeacially ART.
I SO DEAD.
Tomorrow 1st common test paper. HAIZ.
I'm so nervous. HELP!

hoping do to good for CT. Wish me luck ;)

Everythings different.

2009-08-06T19:06:00.002+08:00

Long time no post. Been really really really tired this few days. Not enough rest and sleep. Got long holiday but going JB again. AH! I want to sleep larhhss. -__- Got lots of homework,i think. Just now accompany my mum go bank thats why can't stay long for the class NE Decoration. Sorry. I really wanted to help. Tomorrow already ND. Wearing white :D cos no red D: Pity Diyanah cos of her HP. Again sorry can't accompany you see teacher(: HOPE YOU GET YOUR PHONE FASTER!
Taufiq not in skool for 2 days. Haiz.. said got 2 days MC for a slight flu.

And somehow everythings okay or seems better but something just doesn't feel right and the happiness isn't showing enough. I need to lighten up abit.
No one understands. And one one knows me.

And saw someone today. An old friend. Last time i saw her in 07 she was this normal girl with specs.. decent hairstyle,long socks and skirt which i smiled at and she return it the same. Now,
all i see is this stuck up girl with all the opposite things i mention. I nvr knew she changed alot. PPL changed. Part of 사랑.
I used to be the same and now i change in the outside but the inside i'm still the same old girl shying away from everyone.

Back 2 SKOOL

2009-07-28T16:17:00.003+08:00

Totally have no energy today. So tired. I so should have not go to school today. But noo.. i had to go to school just becos i miss school for 1 DAY(Big Deal ah) then Nabilah never come D; Actually many ppl never come yesterday and today.(Donno asl ler.) Thats why go home straight today,headache. Been sleeping for the whole of Pyshics. Watching Zettai Kareshi and chatting with Taufiq. Damn, he's irritating.. Got like 10+ episode to finish!
Okie won't blog any longer. Need some rest. Going JB on Friday night -_- Why can't i just slack at home like i always do on the weekends?

:P

22 July 2009 - Racial Harmony Day

2009-07-23T19:52:00.005+08:00

RHD photos:
Heyyo humans! Back here again to update. I know RHD was like so two days ago but I didn't have time to update. I'm looking forward to weekend! Finally can have a break from school. Besides there's nothing interesting going on at school. And folded paper cranes today.Not that hard ler cos Nabilah though me on Monday. Then went Causeway as usual. Ate at Banquet. Gosh never eat there for a long time. Usually i'm the one sitting and looking at the rest eating. OhOh! I saw this really nice waist skirt at Cotton On. So nice. Ehem, somebody owes me a bdae present(: HAHA. Donno suddenly i'm addicted to SHOPPING!

OKAY,I can't control myself!

Your 2 in 1.

2009-07-20T19:10:00.005+08:00

Remaining pics from last friday
Calvin xtra. lol.
Aku suapkan Diyanah kek.
Hanah suapkan Diyanah kek.
At interchange ontw home waiting for bus...
This one same place but no cynthia..

AT MAC just now:I<3fries!
Nabilah taking pic of me while eating fries. Tk der keje ah budak tuh.
YUM. McSPICY meal. :P

Not going to make a long post.
Already bought memory card for my camera so
can use it tomorrow :D
Wearing baju kurung tomorrow.
And I want to sleep early tonight! So tired..

Your the one that puts me in so much misery but your also the one that makes me smile and laugh.

18 JULY 2009.

2009-07-18T18:20:00.014+08:00

____________ HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY DIYANAH___________________

BDAE GIRL:

Cutting cake. All wet,kena bash by them at playground. LOLS.

CAAAKE:
CANDID:
Faris was he catcher when we played block catching at the carpark. BEST!

Eating cake. YUM :PKhatijah. (Diyanah was testing out my phone camera,smile shutter.) LOL.

16 July 2009
Btw i watched Harry Potter And The Half Blood Prince on Thursday with Ayu and Taufiq. And Taufiq said i cannot keep my mouth shut while watching the movie. -__- I was just asking question okay! But the movie was good but compared to the last movie,it was way better.

17 July 2009
NVM,back to my topic. Diyanah bdae celebration was FUN. We all suprise her at her house but too bad she already knew about it cos she said we were kinda obvious. LoL. Then we all go down and play Block catching then cut cake then played blind mice then GO HOME! Had to admit the part where we bash Diyanah with water bom was funny! haha. *And i still owe her presents.

18 July 2009
Yeap. 18 July. Haiz. Was suppose to be CIP 2009. D: But got cancel becos of that stupid HINI(H1N1)! All school stuff also cancel till August.(CCA,Assembly,Celebrations,HL) .
Also today Diyanah Birthday(: And actually wanted to today but too bad ah already plan yeseterday.

19 July 2009
Going to the library tomorrow with Hanah,Diyanah and Khatijah. Donno who else going.
Weekends feel so short. HAIZ

And i did said wanted to upload more pics from Li Min's Birthday but since already upload at 2/1 Blog. Do drop by (:

Got more pics from yesterday but will uploaded sometime later.
Not tomorrow or else my blog will be flooded with pics. LOL.

BYE

Another Birthday!

2009-07-10T20:56:00.005+08:00

I'm like damn tired rite now but free. Birthday Suprise that Rahayu plan for Li Min was a success and it was FUN! Especially the waterbom. LOL.
Okay lah, dowan to type so much just post pics can already :D
AND HAPPY ADVANCE BDAE LI MIN (;

OKAY THATS ALL. More pics will be uploaded as soon as i get it.

:P

No school for one week.

2009-07-07T11:52:00.003+08:00

I donno, i should be happy or sad there's no school. But i more to the sad side ):
But i enjoy getting up late! Can't do e-learning rite now. Mine comp don't have the microsoft stuff.
Chatting with Nabilah. She say watching Boys Over Flowers. She even bought Teenage.(got the poster inside tau.) hehe. I SO WANT. lol. And i'm broke rite now, so present will be given next week. Hate having no money.HAIZ.
I'm alone at home now. Mum just gone out for work.
Just now talk with her awhile.

I said,"Mak leh kluarkan $100 dari bank?"
Mak said,"Uat per?"
I said,"Nk rebond rambot ah."
Mak said,"Alah kau nie, tunggu Raye ah. Klau rebond skrg nanti rosak."

LOL. i never thought she let me deposit money from my bank.
Now i have to wait for another 1 and the half month.
NVM, its worth waiting.

OKAY, back to watching drama. (; Hehe.

School Reopens ; Rahayu's Bdae.

2009-06-29T20:53:00.003+08:00

AYU! BDAE GIRL! Peace!THE CAKE. (Same as my bdae cake last time except got stars.) hehe.

So sleepy rite now! Later gonna eat. Lucky i went home late so that i won't sleep in the afternoon.
So much to say. The only thing i hate abt today is the change of sit in class. HAIZ. Sit infront skali. Nk tido pon susah. Hehe. I realise i pay attention better sitting at my old place rather then in the front. Mrs Lee keep calling my name cos i didn't pay attention. Just hard lah to concentrate. Enough lah. Btw hate temperature taking. Heard CIP got cancel D: Stupid disease. :X
Then after school went 883 buy Rahayu bubbletea then Nabilah went home. Then the usuals go CWP celebrate Rahayu's Bdae. GOT CAKE. Yum. And i felt i ate alot today. I dowan to gain weight!! I'm suppose to lose weight. Seriously. NVM. Why can't i just get quarentine?

CURRENTLY SO HAPPY WITH NEW PHONE!
yes just bought a new one yesterday. Diyanah also got a new phone. Her one Nokia.
I just change to Sony Erricson tau!

End OF EM :D

2009-06-25T20:11:00.003+08:00

Photography<3

EM today was fun since it was the last day.
Sebab gii Swensens! Makan free sey. Haha. (I♥ICECREAM.)
But the other day we learnt about make up but Nabilah didn't go):
Still fun lah then after that go RP to see Hidayah ngan Nabilah nyer PushCart.
Haiz. Three more days to school.
Haven't get new phone. D: (Masih lom conferm ler.)
Sunday pon maybe gii Johor.
Besok tk tau plak plan kiter gii Jurong Point ngan Lot1.
SO MANY PLANS!
NOW tired +_+

<3

Finally i update!

2009-06-15T17:55:00.004+08:00

Hiding in toilets during lessons. Missed it all.

I finally got to update my blog which is almost dead -.-
Not that i dowan to update, nothing to update. Really.
Boring giler June holidays!!
Miss school. Miss friends.
HAIZ.
Keep having the same dream. WHY?
Maybe i feared it is really going to happen.
D:
I really wanna go S'pore Flyer but can't. ):
And i've never go to any 2/1 outings this June holidays.(Escape,Play Max,Orchard,Movies..)
Donno whats wrong with me. But glad i can save money(:
BTW Friday EM. Can't wait :P

I just can't get over what happen.

YUM. :P

2009-06-02T12:34:00.003+08:00

TWO LETTERS so MANY WORDS.

Whoa its only the 1st week of JUNE holidays and i feel bored already. But at least i get to wake up abit late. Hehe. NOW: Waiting for my brownie in the oven. Yes. I made some to past time(:

Sangeeta just message saying that wed going Orchard. I donno. See who going first but already plan to go Singapore Flyer cos the tickets are only $10 for students :D

Message a friend of mine last last night since i can't sleep these past few days with so much going through my mind. And yes,thank you! You are the 2nd person to make me smile even though it was through a message(: But to find a person that can take my troubles away and always filled my life with smiles and laughters is even harder to find. To my friend, i'm glad that you kept my hopes up again and make me feel that i'm not the only one going through a hard time.

Gosh,enough of that. Going to see my brownies! BYE =x

Untitled.

2009-05-31T19:53:00.001+08:00

CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN!
&
BLOG SONG!

Meet The Parent Session.

2009-05-29T18:45:00.006+08:00

Yeh!! JUNE HOLIDAYS! I donno why i'm so excited for a boring one month holiday? Because no school? actually, suddenly i like school so much better but im glad there's a break from faking every single smile and laugh in school when nobody knows that inside i'm really not that happy. Btw, MTPS was okay okay lah. But one part was just itrritating. Two person advising (nagging) me about my studies at the same time. I didnt say much just listen and nodded. Mrs Lee said..blablabla.. then mum nagged again after that -.-. And i'm very happy to get VERY GOOD for my CONDUCT(first time tau)! All i need to improve on is my studies. Mum said i'm addicted to comp. well only a bit :P
I see what i can do about it. Somehow things are running through my head. Not good things. I just can't stop..... from yesterday. No one to get me through this. No one contacted me to even ask or say sorry. NVM. I'm going to eat ):

Misery.

P.S Now i'm crying in the middle of the night for the same damn thing.

One Feeling.

2009-05-28T18:44:00.003+08:00

In Maths, it rained quite heavily just like my tears and the thunderr just like my misery.
Things changed ha?. ALOT. And nothing lasts.
Go ahead and blame me but did you ever blame urself?
I've always been patient and did nothing to deserve this.
I still ask myself: Are you still part of my happiness or just my wasted past?
Sometimes the person you love hurts you but all you can do is smile and stand strong but inside your bleeding and sacrificing.

My tears won't stop until there is someone who can make me smile again.

I wish.

2009-05-25T19:48:00.005+08:00

*OH! If i wish i lost myy memorry, everything would have been black & white by now.

I wish i can finally sleep tonight without having to think about anything. Freeing my mind is one of the hardest things to do. School. Ermm. Same as always. Mrs Lee shouted like crazy.Was i scared? Nah, i'm used to her shouting like a crazy... Nvm. Hahas. Followed Nabilah home help her carry the the 2 heavy Coke bottles. I wonder how school is going to be like without Hidayah & Nabilah tmrrw since they have the PushCart thingy tmrrw. And also i got my Mid Year Exam results. Passed 3. Failed 3. Fair enough but dissapointed. I hate being nagged but i deserve it -.- Sometimes i feel whatever i do seems pointless and that i wish someone would understand every single thing i'm going through. I'm in misery but i don't show it.

When i'm with everybody else.
Its so hard to be myself.
I wish you could tell.

Can't wait for June holidays! :D

So many wishes. But for now,i only want 1 wish.

22 May. Birthday..

2009-05-22T14:26:00.037+08:00

Finally 22 May came! Hahas. Gonna update on the Bugis trip cos just now been busy watching Boys Over Flowers! Nice leh the drama. Actually now no mood to blog. So i'm just going to upload pics.

FRIENDS:

Prass & Nikki

Me & Ayu

Hanah & Me

Nikki & Ayu

Sangeeta & Ayu.

CANDID:

......

Going down.

Diyanah. LOL.

Sangeeta feat. Nikki.

Sangeeta looking through shades.

BDAE GIRL: (LOL)

Goinng to watch sommore dramas. BYE.
BTW,i want to thank my friends for the bdae wish and present.
:D

SC? BORING =X

2009-05-20T21:00:00.002+08:00

Really ah. SC 2009 SUXS CORE! I miss SC 07 & 08. So fun sey. Haiz. GOOD TIMES.
I cannot upload pics ler. Then now helping Ayu with her blogskin. Going school for E-Learning. Then me n Nabilah go CP since Aqidah & Diyanah have band:(

2 more f. days.

Whole Day Out:D Tmrrw SC! yeh.

2009-05-19T21:28:00.003+08:00

AHH! So tired. Whole day busy gilerr. Morning, Art Exam. Okay lah manage to finish all! yeh! But 3hrs like so not enough leh. But when it comes to exam ah, i always finish on the dot. Really. Okay nvm. Then Afternoon, Bugis outing with 2/1 :D Tapi org tuh extra sial. Donno what i mean. Forget it.
Night. Got class. Then now free. Happily blogging.

OKAY. I'll update on SC tmrrw and Bugis Outing on Friday.
BYE.

What to feel. Tell me.

2009-05-16T18:03:00.007+08:00

Went to the library just now,just come back home. Didn't do much there. Finish Art. Walk home alone. Going Bugis on Tuesday(: And btw i don't think i'm celebrating my bdae. I celebrate with family can.Mum said maybe we can go eat seafood:D YUM. Then i can save more to shop. Hehe.
But so much going through my mind right now.
Never thought someone close who have to take my happiness.
I always thought i have been patient.
And i donno what i do to deserve this.
I lost hope.

Tell me what to feel,pls?

STRESS!

2009-05-14T18:26:00.003+08:00

AH!i'm so stress eventhough tmrrw is the 2nd last exam:D Haven't finish art and the exam is like less than a week!! Physics? i have no idea what i have learned so far:O So,Maths 2 today in school. Okay not that hard or easy, just ok ok lah. So after so go RP eat. I'm not eating since i'm saving money(: And btw confirm go Bugis after Art exam on Tuesday since its the last exam. WHOO! And btw still desperate for a phone right now:,( SO SAD!