Friday, April 30, 2010
Red Oh Red :D GOSSHHHH ! Its been such ' a so much things in my head week ' ! Really . I keep thinking of things that are so pointless or may have been long gone in memory lane . Haix . Memorry lane .. love to go for trip (: Anyways , today was Malay Focus , man sick of it . Everytime test . Whtever lah . Then library with Nab . Thinking of borrowing a book but haven't pay fine and i don't think i have time for book reading . Went home , miss more than 2 busses cos v.v full and saw Rahayu , she let me taste a sample of a brownie she bought , damn NICE siol . Hahas , was quite hungry lah that time . Hees . Thanks hor Ayu ! And its been Black Magic and BangBang game madness . Played on Thursday i think and everyone was like dying to know . LOL so funny lah :X Now i think most ppl know . Ermm , so much to say but forget already . Haiyyah . Oh yahh , wanted to watch movie yesterday but no Toy Story 3D . Shit lahh . Been dying to watch 3D . Haixhaix . Nvm , next time perhaps . Long weekend , so gonna do Maths and Art babyy ! Yeah .
Whoa , seems like time flys so FAST ! May ? Aiyooo . Dowann ! Eventhough my birthday . Whees . I'm scared i'll have the worst SWEET SIXTEEN ! Isshh , no negative thinking . Hahas . So hows life ? ermm , great but let it be better . I want to rewind but dowan to go back . Everyone seems happy , and i am too ! :D Will i ever find or even know what it really feels like ? Well , someday huhs . Love is accidental . I made lots of mistakes , may be forgiven or not , it will still not erased whats done and whats gone . The only mistake i can prevent form making is LOVE , it can' happen if i donno the true meaning of it :P For now , i dowan to think about anything , i'll just look forward and hope that things will be better and happiness will shine through me . Ehh , sound emo sia . Well , i'm not ah . So F OUT !
Love is a result of a happy accident :P
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6:31 PM
Monday, April 26, 2010
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY NABILAH ! 
ME and BIRTHDAY GIRL !
Haixx . Long time since i update . Hehes . Or was it just a few days ago ? Ermm nvm . Wanted to update straight after the Saturday BBQ party but was damn tired but had super lotsa fun . Birthday girl was HOT ! Hahas . Cheychey .. confirm banyak pressents . Hope you like MINE,FARIS AND DYLAN present . Talking about birthday girl , she never come today . Haiyoo , say SICK ! Kesian lahh . Get well ! :D Skipp the school part . Haissh . ART is getting tougher ! damn it . I'm sorry if i have not been putting my best in my studies . But so much going through my mind . Nvm , don't feel like talking about it . Anyways , watching a new K - Drama . HEES ! Birth of The Rich ! Ever since i got the KBS channel , i've been hooked to that drama . Ishish , stop talking about TV ! Hahass . Well , i hope weekends come so i'll do my K-Movie marathon ! So FUN ! But firstly , get through boring skool life for this week .
I'm not easy to love , not easy to admit that i'm in love , not easy to say that i have fallen in love .
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9:32 PM
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Goshhh , its raining cats and dogs with loud thunderstorms that gives me the fright but lucky not at home alone . Mum leaving for work later so only left me and bo bro at home . Eh , haven't seen ba bro for few days already . Who cares , its more peacefull now at home . Haix . But i think he will be back on weekends or maybe tmrrw . NO !! But will be out on weekends . Sat is Nab bbq . Wheeheee . Anyways , today was supper hot but then it rain but was quite warm until i got caught in the rain then i was freaking cold . Hahas . But it was fun . Super love the rain . School was short . Focus ended at 4.15 ! Love thursdays (L) Where is everyone when i need them the most ? Anyone care to be by side ? I'm carrying this heavy burden all by myself . This is why i rather keep problems to myself cos no one will care to understand . Hatred is controlling my heart . Anger is in my head . Someone help . I keep saying i'll go crazy one day but i know its not a wish and i don't hope so . But what if i am ? I need someone . Haix . I donno but it keeps growing . I can't tolerate it anymore . PPL say just forget and forgive but i can't . You made my life a disaster since i came to RSS . You cause me to lose the ppl i care for. Now i'm taking back what you took from me long time ago , my happiness . I don't need pretenders like you . How can you say that about me when your the one doing it all this while ? I tried but i'm sick of your faace . You cause me too much pain that i can't just sit down there and let you ruin my life any further . I know ppl like you who will go to any extent to hurt the ppl you so called care for just to gain what you want . Then you lied . You never cared for them just making use of them . Somehow , ur pathetic . I don't care about the good times cos its long gone . I keep forgiving you but you end up being the same person . I just wanna spit out everything about you . And somehow , I wish i don't even know you or existed in my life .
널 미워해
My service charged eh Watermelon has increased! Muahahas !
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5:35 PM
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
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Its a sunset from far cos the greatest things can only be admired from far (:
PHEW ! What a day huh ? And its only Tuesday still left 3 more days plus got Speech Day . Alahhhh .. but its okay finish at 1 ! WHEEHEE ! SO , school was soso . Never eat tat much . Now , hungry but must resist those good food . This way i won't grow fatter or waste my freaking money :D Mdm Liz wasn't in school for FOCUS ART which means that cikgu sial was looking after our class . SHE can go (you know the rest) Seriously sia , got problem with me ah . WTF ah , i do wat i want ah sia no need tell me what to do besides Mdm Liz is in charge now . FO ah ! I'm so glad i'm not the only person who hates her . Hehes . PHEW ! I have backup if she go nasty . Okay moving on , English Mrs Selvan didn't come so I wanted to escape but end up dowan to . Down for BOOK CHECK . walao -.- Enough ah , school talk is just making me stress .
Anways , still deciding . Man , i need lotsa cash . Will save ! :P And i donno why i get piss so easily at those who wanna find problem . I know they joking ah , but please ah , i know you got no life thats why like to piss ppl off for fun ! (Fk) I hate being in an angry mood . Haix . And i have a feeling ppl like you don't move on from what u keep deep down . I know you too well , so yeah , don't pretend lah . You can also go ....... But who cares , as if i like you -.- Sudah lah , malas nk blog already .
Can't wait for Sat :D
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5:59 PM
Monday, April 19, 2010
YES ! Freaks Outs . I think i'm gaining weight . This is all thanks to Ma , who made me so health conscious all over again ! She says if i keep eating at night , I'll grow fight ! What a meanie ): Made me sad ya know . But nvm . Will try my best to run for tmrw's PE ! WEE ! 45kg here i come . Is losing 2kg that hard ? Sheesh . Okay enough of the weight stuff . Need to talk about something else to keep my mind of this kind of things . So school was whatever lah . Mdm Liz didn't come . SUPERYEHH ! But Miss Fasha .. urghhs ... i still don't like her . geez . What a ++++ ! Okay nvm . So after school went CP with Nabilah , Hui Shan and Si Yan , look for Nab's clothes . GAHH , i have shopping needs . Nvmnvm , must control ah Shikin . *SLAPS ! Gtg ah , so bored now . Better watch TV . Sayonara .
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9:32 PM
Friday, April 16, 2010
Konichiwa ! Yesterday didn't update cos was tired and obviously lazy . So no HL today . YES ! But was late as usual but i wasn't late you know yesterday ! Made an effort to wake up early just to be early . So had a little suprise for our chairperson in class today and so for reccess . She looked so shocked or maybe more of a touched feeling ? Hahas . Hope she likes the Winnie The Pooh present :D So after school then went home , then CW with Nab . FOCUS ! Urgghh .. Malay Focus is freaking boring and QUITE ! Its like quiter than the library . So freakkyy . YES ! Ate KFC . YUM ! Anyways , i feeel like i can get addicted to something to easily . But i can control my addiction . No worries . And i'm so tried of putting up with sensitive ppl . Why take things to seriously ? Sheesh . I feel like i gave in too much . All i know that , small things will not bring me down anymore . I can't cry cos i feel as if my tears have been dried up . Cried too much for the past 3 years in RSS . Still promising to myself that I will be happy :D Yet , i wish i never knew you . I'm a toy , put away when lose interest , take it back when they want to play it . Haiz .. no mood to blog already lah . Bye ! Btw , Happy Advance Hui Shan (:
J or K ?
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8:37 PM
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
PEACE is all I NEED !
YES ! WHY ? Cos ... my two babo brothers are not at home ! Muahahaha . Feels like I'm the only child but for today only . My bo brother is coming back home tmrrw . But glad lah , should be happy what or else i suffer . Can't stand the house being to quiet . If have him at least can bully . LOLS ! I'm evil . Muahahaha (again) . My other ba brother donno when come back . He think what this house hotel ah . Go (you know the rest) . HAHAHS ! But whatever , we adek beradek all the type to MYOB one . Don't like to KPKP :P So abit late for school . haix . When will i ever learn ? :( Saw Nab only for photo taking :( :( She went home after that , hope she feels better :D And i'll bet the photo will turn out urghh . Ouhhyahh , wanna thank mummy(: for treating me for reccess today cos I didn't bring my money since was in a rush for skool . DAMN ! Must wake up extra early tmrrw . Ermm . Btw , been concentrating alot on my studies . Just need to recap once I get home , so i don't forget . Hees ^-^ And i just notice when Taufiq read comments about me in the my Report Book , most teachers say i'm quite . Wth ? I know i am SOMETIMES . But whats wrong with that ? Later noise complain . Haiyyoo . But at least I know when its the right to shut up ._____. Alahhh .. nvm .. so pointless telling all this .. no one will get it anyways . Moving on to my progress for ART , Mdm Liz says my shading is IMPROVING ! Wheehee ! But i still think i sux . (Taufiq would have gave me a tight slap if i said that) But i don't care , i didn't say it .. i type it ! :X He say will call me but is he crazy ? 4 am call ? But nvm lah , my phone not in silent mode when I sleep :P And i am not sure if i can sleep tonight . The house is toooo quite .. freaks me out . Lucky , mama is back from WORK ! Well , i think i better chow . Take a nice long bathe then HOMEWORK on a piece of A4 paper ! Haahs . Funny right OMG ! OKIE BYE !
Sweet talkers , Heart breakers ... whats next ?
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5:49 PM
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Was late for skool but luckily was not late late :O Stupid alarm ! It stop snoozing after i set it up for 4.30 am . Yes very early i know , just incase if i am late (: But wats the point , i can never be on time this days . Was late for Art Focus . Lucky Mdm Liz wasn't there that time . And was also lucky Mdm Liz didn't ask me why never come stayback yesterday . PHEW . That stupidass still has issues with me . WAHH ! I bet she will be freaking HAPPY ah , i drop Art (which i'm not). GO and .. you know the rest ! Haahahas . Nab didn't come today D: PE was just super tiring . I hate running , IN HOT SUN ! Haix . I feel i totally lost interest for Combined Humans ! I think that's the subject where most ppl fail . Concentrating a whole lot more in Physics ! Yehh .. hope I improve Sciences ! Well , the whole 'hot news' was a rumor .. just heard . The whole commotion was tak perlu . Really . MYOBP ! No life btol lahhh . OH yahh , Nab's bbq birthday is confirmed . Hees . Still thinking of what to buy for her . Saving money now . So will do some shopping when i am free . Btw , i learn something today , LATE = NO MILK COFFEE ! Gahh .. its a must cos its an addiction . Haixx. Hope Nab comes for Photo Taking tmrrw (: Okayy , gonna go bathe now .. then do homework .. then .. watch DRAMA ! Whee ~~~~My eyebags are getting deeper . ZZzz .
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6:52 PM
Monday, April 12, 2010
Don't you all just love rainy days ? GOSH , i love it so much . Why can't it just snow . *slaps , can never happen . DUH -.- But i still wish it would . I donno why i'm loving the cold so much . Heat just makes me .. urgghh . How was school ? It was well whatever . School feels like the most talk about subject but least to not talk about . WHY ? Cos its just like any other days . Wake up , assembly , lessons .. RECCESS .. lessons .. BREAK .. focus .. END ! Boring right ? YAWNS ! Feels like i am an automated robot to do this every freaking day but i had FUN , LAUGHED ! Sometimes thats what it is all about . Not only studies . Hahas . Okok you get my point . So , my dearest mum met up with Mdm Zu for the parents meeting session . Got my report book D: Dissapointing cos i failed SCIENCES ! Gahhh ! Don't freeakking care about Combines Humans . GO DIE ! Will improve on my Physics . Hees ^-^ Mdm Zu said that i have to buck up on my studies and also no more colour contacts . But who cares , i don't wear them daily anymore . Changed back to normal lenses (: After Focus thought of going Causeway but Nab wasn't feeling well . Take care hor :D So , walk her home . Talked , along the way . Haiz .. feels like old times . Akward though since its been a long time . Now , thinking of eating then do my Maths ! Waiting for Watermelon's msg . Dumbass : GET LOST PPL ! LOL . Jkjk . ByeBye .
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6:44 PM
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Gahhh ! XDHello humans ! I can't believe weekends are coming to an end . It seems to fast . I feel like i did nothing yesterday . Yeah , cos my neck was aching so bad ! Today , was abit sick . Headache then vomitted . Haix . Mum gave me panadol . Feeling a bit better . Did abit of Maths .. SO HARD ! I can't give up ! Must peserve to succeed . LOL :X ! Okkkayy .. nvm . Took photos of my room but the camera died half way . Gosh .. have to find a reason to tell Mdm Liz . Parents Teacher meeting was .. well nothing . Mum didn't come but she said she's meeting Mdm Zu tmrrw . YES ah , report book . If i did well , i'm gonna ask her for something . Ermm , what should it be ? hahas . I have needs okay :P Thinking of trying the Milk Green Tea . But Taufiq says it sounds grows . OH well , should just stick to my two (F) MILK COFFEE & TEA . I wish April wouldn't end too soon . I dowan it to be May eventhough its my Birthday ! D: For now , i think i should stick to studies and not think of stupid things . But to be clear , everything is okay now .. settle it all already but have to say that it will take time for things to be like the old times . Miss it soo much . Haix .. Okkayy .. back to surfing net . BYE :O
My stupid baby . My sweet baby .
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6:56 PM
Saturday, April 10, 2010
I need new shoes ! :P
Such a boring weekend . Raining . So dark . My neck is like aching so bad! I think i slept in a wrong position or something . OUCH ! D: Anways , didn't update yesterday cos was TIRED . Now having slight headache . Feeling abit realived for as what is done is done . Btw , my old frend added me on FB ! OFG ! I miss her , so much , i thought she changed alot . More prettier . But who cares ppl change . Fo someone who stays the same is either scared , or just .. i donno . For those who gave me words of courage . Thanks so much , for making things better for me to move on . I'm strong now so things like these won't make me cry . My tear can never be abt something useless . Hahas . Chatting now . Taufiq hope you get better . Faris , its been a long time since we had a nice long chat :X Seems its getting better but all i want is ppl to help me get thru this . Appreaciate it if you do ! :P
I think most ppl would have know about what happen yesterday or what happen lately . I wish to not talk about it . But like 'someone' said , don't bottle up your feelings . Yeah , i learn alot . Hahas . The whole thing i've been thru is just ugly . I asked for it , you gave it and to think of it , you hit like a fcuking bitch you are . Really , compare to the scratches , the anger is much more painfully . And whatever to youu . I don't feel like entertaining ppl like you . You never knew who i am , its just that you think what i am . Shy , quite , innocent . I am really like that ? To you maybe , but its fair enough i have my say about how i tolerated you for the past 3 years of my life . Forgiving u was just the biggest mistake . But like i said , i don't regret what i do . No point at all . You have the face to say i'm backstabber , how bout it ? Has if you nvr done that . Don't pretend , don't lie , don't deny cos its gonna come out clear in the end . I known u too long .. u have ur ways .. don't show ur pity face .. here okay . Crying for attention is just stupid . If u can't change then at least shut up . Is shutting up for one min that hard . Sheesh . i don't care anymore , i say what i say cos u ask me to just say to ur face . SO here take all this , u KNC ! i know i can be mean somethings but u have done meaner things that i kept quite about , its just fair . U make everything seem apart . Now its just hard to take it all back ! ): So my last word is , either you go and DIE or realise you are just a KNC ! Thats it .
Toleration is only to a certain extent . Being too nice makes ppl have advantage on you and think your weak .
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6:01 PM
Thursday, April 8, 2010
YAWNS ! So tired right now but force myself to post before goin' to sleep . Such a kcoh day . Reallyy . Hahas . Don't feel like talking about what happen today during Physics cos I talked out everything for the last few hours just now . Gosh , i'm so tired of all this crap and bullshit . Glad that there are ppl , who understand me . Haix . Thanks alott to those who were there to help solve the problem :D But anyways after that slack with Hui Shan all after Focus . Super fun sia .. TALK , LAUGH LIKE CRAZY ! Wish it could be like that everyday . Hahas . I love a good laugh , helps me forget every single problem in my mind .. well just for a while ah .. not completely .. forgetting something is still not so easy for me .. neither is moving on . So hard to go through everything right now . But no need to worry , I have ppl who care for me . SUPER LOVED ! Hahas . Hope it gets better everyday . NIGHT !Wish i never know you .
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9:56 PM
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
We have to know the right road to our destination cos the signs are just guides .
Heyyooo !
Finally found time to update since i was super busy yesterday . HAIZ . That is all thanks to ART and NAPHA test . Damn it lah . Then at night still got ngaji . Only eat sandwich and drank MILK COFFEE(SL) only you know :P Then slept at 2 on Sunday or wassit yesterday .. can't remember ... having insomia these days . Gosh , whats wrong with me ! Gahh ! So stress . Need a chill pill . Btw , i think my stamina drop . Like so bad cos i didn't do well for NAPHA or my running . Wanna go jog and gym with Nabilah if we are free lah .. cos I understand , we Sec 4 are just damn busy . No time for this and that . Everyday Focus Study . Haiyoo . Emel maybe right , i think school just made us anti-social ppl . OUH sorry can't go out , BUSY ! WTF __ Okay nvm . So today stayback until 6.15 sia do finish our 1st prep board and IT SUCKS ! But its okay (: Anyways , Parents Teacher Meeting coming and i don't think my mum is coming . Oh well , we still have to go for briefing -___- At night sommore . Why dowan to do in the morning so no school . Muaahahaa . But like i said , i prefer school then to be bored to death at home . Yah , i complain but so what .. i'm loving it ! At least get to see my friends :D The teachers .. ermm .. i'm not so enthu to see them . But what to do ? Life is unfair . Hahas :X Watermelon didn't come Focus English today . So bored lah . But during English is FUN ! Of cos mah , WATERMELON is a freak .. thats why . Hahas . KIDDING ! I ate already .. just NOW . YUM . SO now .. ermm .. slack for awhile ONLY .. cos later back to being BUSY ! No choice have to put up with it :D
I promise I won't let anyone ruin my happiness .
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6:58 PM
Sunday, April 4, 2010
너와 갔던 곳 나의 merry go round 기억 그대로 반짝이고 있어 이 모습처럼 언제나 나의 곁에 He's like merry go roundSNSD - Merry Go Round .
Nothing-do-weekend . SNORES ! ZZZzz . Cant wait to go back to school ! See my peeps :P Study . Laugh my ass out ! ( LOVE) Hahas . Studyy .. again : Was suppose to go out jogging and movie on Friday but both cancel D: Nabilah was sick and tickets were sold out . Then Saturday went out with family didn't go out for movie cos it was damn late then dowan to go . Today .. ermm , otw to library saw someone then ask me to slack along .. then okay hor .. go slack at cwp then library , walk around cwp then HOME ! Boring much . Have to clean my pink pink pink nails ! AWW ! Such a waste , my nails .. Gosh nvm . Then have a HUGE P on my face . I think bad luck is hitting me slowly .. donno whats next ! Feel damn guilty for breaking 2 mirrors inside the house . MumDad nagging .. (IGNORED) Hahas . Now , donno if should eat or not ? Ermm . Anyways , why guys eat so much and never grow fat . DAMNDAMN jealous arh . Have to lose alot&alot of weight . Health concious girl ! YeapYeap . To think of it , ermm i think i'm concious of most things . Hahas . Like eye contact , lahhh .. hate it makes me feel uncomfortable expecially with certain kind of ppl . Hahas . Okay NVM !
Anyways , i finally realise , i'm angry with you , i don't like you , i'm annoyed with you .. blablabla .. but i'm not sad when with you . I met alot of pple who just hurt me , dissapointment . I'm tired of it . I'm sick of thinking about how the past has hurt me so much but at the same time I'm missing it more than anything . You make me laugh eventhough u donno how to shut up ! I've found a friend but haven't found a lover . That i know can never happen . Hahas . Seing you two makes me sad , envy on how ppl can be close eventhough they are not from the same class anymore .
I told myself the truth but why isit still hurting me ?
Friendship is not about how long you know the person but its about who came and never left .
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7:31 PM
Saturday, April 3, 2010
HELLO !Doing Art now which is KILLING me ! Arghh . Help me ! Anyways , found this cool pic on Flickr . Hahas . Rahayu ask me to post pics in my post . So why not ? Can relate it to something . Hehes . Was super bored yesterday , so painted my nails . Pink baby ! Whee . I finally realise i'm getting FATTER ! Gahh , need to lose weight lah .. SADD ! Not eating dinner tonight i guess . Nothing much lahh to blog .. Schhool come faster , home is not so sweet anymore . I miss my besties (L)
Btw , i feel like a totally fool right now . Why isit so hard to move on ? I keep digging the past . I told myself that i forgot the past but the painfull truth is that my heart is just bleeding . Your right , i keep bottling up my feelings . I did that cos i know not a person in this world can understand me , can stop my tears , can put i big plaster on my heart . Everything i do is pointless . Why must i meet ppl that i care for but will just end up hurting me ? I'm lieing to myself too much cos i'm just a stupid coward that can never accept the truth . But i can't stop myself . I tired of putting a happy mask when underneath it all , i'm just not the happy girl i look like . So helpless right now . I miss everything !
Take me to a fairytale where happy endings and true love exist .
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5:18 PM
My name is Shikin :D
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