Smile. Hide. Kiss.

Monday, January 18, 2010

HEY ! Here to update . Yehh you might think its dead since didn't post anything for 10 FREAKING DAYS ! But so much going on as usual . But going to stay POSITIVE no matter what . YEHH ! Kurokechi ! And kokchongma , i'm not going to be the sad girl i use to be . Eventhough, no matter how sad i am . I'm strong now , not letting a worth of tear been seen by anyone not wanting to think i am weak . am i fated to live in sadness ?

LIVE :
Buut seriously , i'm so tired of fighting , crying , angry . When i thought i want to be happy for once , sadness comes to me again . I feel like no one is there for me anymore . Whatever i do alwyas the one who seems to be the bad girl here . No matter how i hard i try . I just wanna people to know . HEARING IS NOT ENOUGH ! am i hiding too much?

LAUGH :
I can say i more cheerful last few days,i guess(not sure) , but since what happen , i can't count on no one to make me laugh anymore cos you were the first chingu (frend) who makes me laugh(always) . But now i decided to put you as the past , i still trying hard to be happy but not counting on no one just the natural things . Honestly , i forgive but i never forget . Thats what you use to say but i never believe now i guess i know what it means . THANKS CHINGU ! am i forcing my happiness?

LOVE :
I love watching K Dramas . The love plot is short and simple unlike Indo Dramas until 200 + episode at last happy ever after also right . Haix . But to me , happy ever after is not in real life . NOW : watching Princess Hours . Decided to watch it cos last time i don't quite understand it but now i do . I like how the bigung(princess) fells in love with the complete stranger instead of the chingu(friend) . Just like my life , when i just realise it was like a drama but a different plot all together . The girl in dramas usually end up falling in love with a completely stranger , enemy or whatever instead of their own friend or someone who cares for them the most . Yeh , for me its not possible to someone who you can forever think as only a friend and that your heart tells you love someone who think you can never love. Love is dramatic , but always true and pure . SARANG ! am i really gonna know whats love?

Lying if i say i don't miss the past , the truth if i say i dowan to go back to the past .

♥our lips must always be sealed

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