Smile. Hide. Kiss.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

YEHH! I fixed my comp! Finally can use it. And so damn lucky the files in my comp are not deleted. phew.. Anyways,here to update again.And I just realised my blogskin looks very weird cause i'm currently using Internet Explorer. Clearly stated that this blogskin would look effing great in Mozilla Firefox. -___- And i got ayu tagging my blog non-stop. Don't mind that. Btw got back my CT papers. Arghh.. i don't even wanna talk about it D: Fasting now okay2 lah. Just that i get impatient when i have to wait for break fast so i purposely go home late. Hehe.
Finish all english assignments! Left with Malay due on Friday. I still haven't finish my freaking thick book! Nothing much to blog so i better get off the comp.

BYE!

P.S Happy Birthday Taufiq! :D

♥our lips must always be sealed

9:01 PM

Friday, August 21, 2009

HEYY HEYY! Back to update again. I really really really can't get over it. I did try to stop it but tears just keeps flowing. I never cried so hard over something before. Thanks for those who are there for me. But i guess no more crying tomorrow.(Nanti batal puase). hehe. I'll try not to think so much. BUT HOW?

YEAP. PUASA is tomorrow. So excited. Buke puase kat luar. Yeh! Originally going to JB but change of plan since everyone is so worn out after one week of school/work. I want to sleep and wake up late! Seriously, tk cukop tido sey. Penat :O And i also cut hair. It looks okay but i miss my old hair. Tk per lah at least can grow back.
Mid Year so far fail Maths n English. PASS MALAY!! So happy! Pizza treat today also. YUM! Didn't play blindmice or follow Nabilah go library cos dowan to miss last episode of Suci! Finally finish the 274 episode! :D

I'm feeling super hungry now :P

I'm tired of being hurt,when all i try to do is just be a friend.

♥our lips must always be sealed

8:09 PM

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

1ST: WATCH ORPAN!

2ND:CUT MY HAIR.
3RD:DYE MY HAIR.
4TH:COMPLETE FASTING.
5TH:FINISH THIS WEEK HOMEWORK.
6TH:REBOND HAIR.
7TH:HAVE A LAPTOP(not going to happen.)
8TH:SAVE AT LEAST $100.
9TH:PASS AT LEAST 3 OR MORE SUBJECTS.

10TH:HAVE LONG HAIR!

So many wants for the last 4 months of the year. SO fast 2009 is going to end.I so so looking forward to 2010. Hari Raya also. Hehe. :D School now okay okay lah. But can't be bothered to blog about it. And yeap i guessed it. The class seperation thing really changed everything this year. But there's nothing i can do. Just except change and forget the past.

D,: Still trying hard not to feel sad or to cry.

♥our lips must always be sealed

7:51 PM

Monday, August 17, 2009

S for SADNESS?

I really can't stop crying since recess. WHATS WRONG WITH ME!?
Mixed feeling. I never thought this problems would approached me.
When i just tasted the taste of happiness,it has to go D:
I feel like a sore loser,destined to live in misery.
To make things clear,i didn't cry bcos of anyone.
I wouldn't blame my friends for what happen.
Its just a personal problem.

MOVING ON,exams are killing me with GUILT. Cos i don't think i can pass. English homework has been postponed,so is our class pizza treat! Finally can finish art. Haiz. Went to the library to get a book for the Ulusan buku.
Tomorrow, CHEMISTRY!
Ermm still thinking of what to buy for Taufiq.

THANKS,for your care and concern. ;D

♥our lips must always be sealed

7:04 PM

Friday, August 14, 2009

YEAH. Finally weekend is here! So happy i can finally rest. But still need to study for Geo. Today went home at 7+. So late! Then went to watch Suci then went to ngaji :D And now here i am blogging. Donno why suddenly so free to update for 3 straight days. Isit becos there so much to blog or isit becos i'm bored and have no life? Ermm. Being doing Facebook quizes for the last 20 minutes and reading Horoscopes. Yeah i know you can't really trust what we read. Seriously,i play comp like almost everyday. Actually after school went to RP then off to play blind mice and block catching with normies. FUN sia. Friday either we play badminton or block cathcing..but long time never go Causeway...errmm..
BTW,PIZZA treat postponed D:

She's everything i'm not.
Its just too hard to say it. I need someone.
THERE goes my + attitude for the week and also my emoing days..
You guess it,my misery did burst and i can't hold it back. SORRY.

You made me happy but the past misery just can't fade away.

♥our lips must always be sealed

10:43 PM

Thursday, August 13, 2009

I'm too happy to share my laughters.

Had a crazy tiring week but feels like everything seems to be exciting. Emotional feelings are not approaching me like they use to. GLAD. I don't feel like emoing this month. Need all the energy i could get for fasting in abt 1 or 2 weeks time. Tk sabar yer nk RAYE! hehe. Ish, puase lom datang nk raye. +___- Also happy i'm healthy and not sick. Common Test week leh. (Maths tmrrw..haix)
But have to stay today has lots of suprises and if you know me, i'm terrible at keeping secrets but in the end my lips are still sealed. :P Wanting to sign up for the Old Folks home CIP! Really need those hours. GOOD NEWS too today, our class won the NDP thing! Mcm tk percaye gitu. Somehow i wish the effort was not from our class cos i don't think 3/2 is ever going to be like my previous class. Sway ah. Harap2 next year org2 tk perlu smue stayback. I know,i'm mean. But its for the sake of the class. I can stand every lesson with all the kecohness(hehe). Another GOOD NEWS, MT dah combine balek! SO DAMN HAPPYY! I miss my friends in 3/1 and that MT is the only class we can be together. :D
Flooded with homework this week,i'll try to handle it. Finish maths portfolio.
Still left ulusan buku and eng. powerpoint.

Having a + attitude just feels good but it doesn't mean my past misery is gone.
It just stays in my heart ready to burst anytime!

<3

♥our lips must always be sealed

8:39 PM

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

I got lots of homework not done yet. I'm focusing on ART cos i do not not to get scolding from Mdm Lis.. hai..seram aku! Maths Portfolio do in class (: Went library after school then off to RP with the normies. AND I'M FREAKING OUT! I ATE TOO MUCH TODAY! I'm scared i'll gain weight. I make sure that won't happen and i also need to grow taller..ermm.Still thinking of what to buy Taufiq..why must he be obbsed with soccer. It so dumb lah. And Happy Advance Bdae to RAVIN! Also hope Dayah gets better :D
*Going to wish Ravin tomorrow. And so many irresponsible ppl leave stuff on the class ledge. Aku,Nabilah,Aliah ngan Xue Min jugak yang Cikgu harapkan. Hehe. Mcm step baek jek..

I feel alot of hatred in the air but all of them seem nice for me to hate except for that stupid fucking asshole! I never hated someone so much. You're always the cause why the class is never peaceful. Why many teachers hate the class. You're the cause i have no hope for...
Mixed feelings. I want to punch you in the face but don't even wanna look at ur disgusting ugly face. And serious sey. Bende2 kau buat ah sungguh tk perlu -____-
Senang2 kan..aku pon tk yah heiran ngan kau lah wei. _|_

And now i don't give a DAMN care if those other PPL call me emo shit...shy...quiet..no life..selenger.. or whatever.
Donno me don't judge me. I know i'm not easygoing with ppl but thats just part of me.
It takes time. I never even tried to be someone i'm not.
emo emo lah sey. _|_

♥our lips must always be sealed

6:50 PM

Monday, August 10, 2009

Somehow, i wish i can see the future up high in the sky.

HAPPY BELATED 44TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE.

Gosh 4 days of holiday and i'm left with only today since i already when JB for 2 days.
FRIDAY doesn't really count cos was really busy that day.
And i still haven't DONE LOTS AND LOTS of homework espeacially ART.
I SO DEAD.
Tomorrow 1st common test paper. HAIZ.
I'm so nervous. HELP!

hoping do to good for CT. Wish me luck ;)

♥our lips must always be sealed

5:56 PM

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Long time no post. Been really really really tired this few days. Not enough rest and sleep. Got long holiday but going JB again. AH! I want to sleep larhhss. -__- Got lots of homework,i think. Just now accompany my mum go bank thats why can't stay long for the class NE Decoration. Sorry. I really wanted to help. Tomorrow already ND. Wearing white :D cos no red D: Pity Diyanah cos of her HP. Again sorry can't accompany you see teacher(: HOPE YOU GET YOUR PHONE FASTER!
Taufiq not in skool for 2 days. Haiz.. said got 2 days MC for a slight flu.

And somehow everythings okay or seems better but something just doesn't feel right and the happiness isn't showing enough. I need to lighten up abit.
No one understands. And one one knows me.

And saw someone today. An old friend. Last time i saw her in 07 she was this normal girl with specs.. decent hairstyle,long socks and skirt which i smiled at and she return it the same. Now,
all i see is this stuck up girl with all the opposite things i mention. I nvr knew she changed alot. PPL changed. Part of 사랑.
I used to be the same and now i change in the outside but the inside i'm still the same old girl shying away from everyone.

♥our lips must always be sealed

7:06 PM